new beginning

before and the after effect. :)

2007-07-12T19:08:00.000+08:00

waany, bah bah and me. [before i cut my hair]

jing yi, waany, bah bah and me. [before i cut my hair]

vale first picture with me in short hair.

she's trying to kiss me.

i point at her and she is shocked.

then now she is trying to kiss me and i'm shocked too.

our first try taking in front of the mirror.

2nd try of taking in front of the mirror.

3rd try. and it's this when they are satisfied. =.= LOL.

CAMPAIGN GRAPES! you guys ought to try. it's like so nice~~~

picture with bah bah. LOVE~~

done blogging.

me!

2007-07-10T20:41:00.000+08:00

erms. i don't know how to upload pics to wordpress. so i'll do it here. =) that's me! ME! ME!!

abandoning.

2007-07-08T17:29:00.000+08:00

gee. i'm abandoning this blog for a short period of time. till i think blogger is better. hahas.

meet you there. => andereseite.wordpress.com

tata. =)

=)

2007-07-07T22:16:00.000+08:00

went to the library to borrow more comics~! hahas. can really entertain myself for the next one week or so. =)
didn't manage to get my hair cut done today. but mum booked an appointment this tuesday. oh yes! can get my hair done. =) short hair, here i come! hahas..
did i mention that i went gym yesterday? ya. GYM! lols. my stamina sucks big time can?! it's like getting worse and worse. hahas. don't worry. i won't give up. hahas.

had a talk with mum. she kinda approve me going to church. i'm not sure why. but yaps. she does approve me. hahas. is it good or what?! =)
anyway, a miracle happened today. lols. angel msg me!! hahas. =) miss him can?!?! hahas. ok ok. he talked to me. as usual, i confined in him. felt alot better. thanks angel! =)
yaps. time to appreciate my friends. especially dum! cause he buy sweet for me. hahas. =) and i love mins, and jia jia. =)

ok. i think i might close this blog temporary. hahas.

done blogging.

=D

2007-07-06T19:36:00.000+08:00

ok. i've moved all the previous entries, except this, to wordpress. decided to try out wordpress. cause i can private certain entries! HA~! blogger should have something like that too. then i'll fully support them. =x

anyway, i'll still be updating this more than wordpress. but if you wanna know that add, just simply open your mouth, and ask. lols.

went to school today. lessons are just so boring! could really fall asleep. =x ok. majority of the class hang out together for lunch. which is like so cool~! =D and that's how i got to know this interesting fact of my class. majority of them are christians! haha. i finally understand why they say don't judge a book by it's cover. lols. there's this guy who looks like a xiao liu mang, but his faith for Him is so strong. =) cool~~~ haha. he told us his experience to healing. so me and my friend were like, we should go! so that the person can heal our pimples. HAHA. =x ok. it's not funny.

went home with seng yong, sheldon, crystal and xing lun. but crystal and xing lun left for TM. so i went home with sy and dox. wheee~~ TP will be flooded with MJR-ians again!!HAHA. =) feel so lonely without them can?? esp hk, mins and crystal. no one to go home and go school with me!!! miss their laughter and companion. =)

might have a haircut tml. hopefully i do. I WANT NEW HAIRSTYLE!! =D

done blogging.

-andereseite.wordpress.com-

-sigh-

2007-07-05T18:29:00.000+08:00

gosh. i think i'm moving my blog again. =.=

finally gotten all the results. WHEE~~ ok. wasn't really satisfied. and hopefully the moderation would really help. currently, i'm having only 1 A. -.-" 1 C, 2 B+ and 1 B. hahas. not bad. and all thanks to my damn commsk, i got my stupid C!! -argh-

ok.

done blogging.

-the worse thing to do is to shed tears when you're alone on the train.-

erms...

2007-07-04T17:11:00.000+08:00

erms. hardly see any mjr-ians in tp today. cause most went back to help out for the sec 1 camp. except me. =.=

ok ok. went to school for lesson. the report was kinda badly done. i think she should hold report meeting instead of just writing comments. apparently we don't really know what she wants and then when we hand up, she said we don't give her what she wants. -.-" i tried to argue with her, but my group leader asked me not to. fine! so hate it.

went itas for lunch. had yong tau fu. =D met aloy. hahas. talked to him for awhile. then he left. went for accounting class. =.= trial balance. it's so shitty! >< forget it. i'll just have to practice on my own.

went to tm for awhile. on my way, i saw yun zhen. =) talked to her about school, then we went different directions. omg! i broke my nail. >< and then, i was stopped by this lady. telling me that if i bank in 200 bucks each month, at the end of the year, i'll have like 1000 bucks worth of interest. =.= like i ever care about such thing. and she asked what i think about it. i was, "erms.. ok?" what she expects me to say?

on my way home, i dropped my mp3 twice!! ><

-sigh- tmr getting back my last 2 results. BLESSED ME WITH AN A!! hahas. =X

done blogging.

-probably i'm making the wrong movie. can i turn back? ><-

-blur-

2007-07-03T17:12:00.000+08:00

somehow, i had the urge to go jogging. and i told like most of my friends, "i'm going for a run after school, that's why i'm in sports attire." and as usual, their reactions was super funny. =x eyes open super wide, mouth open, dumbfounded. and only after few seconds, they replied, "that's wrong! i swear you'll change your mind the very last minute." fine~~ hahas.

anyway. econs lecture wasn't that bad. =) i did understand. only that i super hate drawing curves. so.. erms.. ya. i ended up drawing a smiley face. =x then went for APEL. today's APEL is slightly different. we had 2 classes combine. and we watched SIR ERNEST SHACKLETON.

ok. i notice people named ernest seems to be rather successful. maybe my future son will be named ernest! hahas. if i ever get married. =.= ok ok. back to main point. this sir ernest shackleton is an explorer. and his movie is really.. well. to me, motivation, touching and it emphasise on unity. =)

i like the last part of the movie. cause he had to go to some island to seek help. and the way there is like super dangerous. so yaps. it took him like a year plus plus. and he finally got help for his crews, who were left behind at the antartic. so anyway, he went back to antartic. and he told the sailor, "they are all there. no one is missing." wow! this sentence is so powerful! =) he risk his life of getting lost in the sea and yet, all that was in his mind, was the crew. =) TOUCHING! and his ship, was called endurance. apparently, cause of the environment there, they had to abandon the ship. gee.. that's quite sad. =X

ok. after school, went home. I WENT TO THE GYM K?!?! =x i'm like so freaking happy. my heart beat went to the fats-are-being-loss range. but later, it fell all the way to like 53/s. >< scary~ and ya. the most paiseh thing was, the speed was quite fast, and so fast that i fell off the "running track". -.-" PAISEH CAN?!?! ><

came back home. had noodles. =S then do my homework. guess what. i did my homework half way, i started cursing and swearing. -sigh- i forgotten to do all my CSA online class quiz. and all are closed. >< -ARGH- i'm speechless now. >< don't know to be angry with myself, or to be sad or to be worried if i'll have to retake this damn subject. ><

2 more days!! 2 more days to knowing my last 2 subject results. =) give me an A for econs~~~~ =x

done blogging. =)

-if this life is all about You, won't it be great? cause You are just so perfect. =)-

COMPLAINTS~~~

2007-07-02T18:19:00.000+08:00

ok. many complaints. super duper many~~ TSK~~~

went to school for accountings. 23 july~~ class test. tsk! and it's not in the morning~~ it starts at 7.15 p.m!! -sians-

then went for lunch at ENG school. second canteen. the food portion is like so small. and it cost 2.60. =.= i could have better food at mensa 2. =x ok ok. that's not so much of a big problem.

then came commsk lesson. as usual, the teacher was LATE. then she started giving us group work. and nag at us for being noisy. =.= after that, went to hand in the report. so i asked what must be included. she told me a total different thing from last week. so how can it be my fault!?! -argh- oh well. at least commsk is over!

went to meet mins, then went for interview.

screwed up my interview pretty much. >< the person who interview me makes me nervous!!! min's interviewer can laugh. mine is so strict. =S i want to laugh also can't laugh. scare he scold. =x oh well. i'm praying. -keeping fingers crossed- i want this CCA~~~ ok. at least give me a darn CCA la.

ok. home~~ finally. i'm like so tired. =x i'm going to do my tutorials today~~~ i will!! i will!! hahas.

pictures time~~

mins, me, crystal, hui jia

mins and me with crystal's twist.

mins

crystal and hui jia with my twist.

mins, me and crystal.

mins, me, crystal and hui jia.

mins took this pic when the door closed.

me, trying to cover my pimples. somehow, bu cheng gong. LOL.

=) it feels good to know that friends are always there. it feels good to know that you can turn to them. therefore, i love my friends! ^^

done blogging.

-i'll do my best. ^^-

=D

2007-07-02T09:06:00.000+08:00

Daddy, blessed this little girl so that she will not screw her interview like the one before. blessed this little girl so that things will be better than before. blessed this little girl so that her new life will be all about You. =)

AMEN!

erms. is this little girl asking abit too much? =x

looking back

2007-07-01T21:00:00.000+08:00

Looking from a window above
It's like a story of love
Can you hear me.
Came back only yesterday
I'm Moving further away
Want you near me.

All I needed was the love you gave
All I needed for another day
All I ever knew
Only you

Sometimes when I think of your name
And it's only a game
And I need you
Listening to the words that you say
Getting harder to stay
When I see you

All I needed was the love you gave
All I needed for another day
All I ever knew
Only you

This is gonna take a long time
And I wonder what's mine
Can't take no more
Wonder if you'll understand
It's just the touch of your hand
Behind a closed door

Repeat (2 times):
All I needed was the love you gave
All I needed for another day
All I ever knew
Only you

Looking from a window above
It's like a story of love
Can you hear me.
Came back only yesterday
I'm Moving further away
Want you near me.

Repeat (2 times):
All I needed was the love you gave
All I needed for another day
All I ever knew
Only you

fell in love with this song, the very first time i heard it. =)

sometimes, i'm wondering if not joining choir in poly is the right choice. hmm. had a dream last night. i dreamt i was singing on stage. it's a pretty weird dream. one thing for sure, i will be caught dead standing alone on stage singing. cause i don't have the courage and an obvious reason is, i don't have the voice. LOL. =) whatever.

went to library today. borrowed comics. have the urge to read comics these days. kinda sick of romance books. =) comics make me laugh. and unlike romance book, it doesn't make me wish like being the main character of the story. =)

last night. i was feeling a little down. then something came to my mind. footprints. most christians would have heard this story before. and yaps. i so agree with this story. He carried me through. the way He carried me through the previous obstacle. and right now, He makes me feel that there is no one who can shower me with as much love as He does. and one thing for sure, He is always by my side. =)

ok. i'm pretty done here. =)

done blogging.

-numbing my feeling-

woots.

2007-06-30T20:43:00.000+08:00

today's shopping is not fruitful. =( and i so hate today's orchard. it's like so freaking crowded. and people just keep blocking me. so i had to push. =X

ok. pictures.

toots. she is posing for me to take and she's taking me too. so i'm posing and taking a picture of her.. =D

mins and her favourite pose. =P

me and amilia. =D

my JIA~~~

amilia, me and vale. =)

that's xiao ying, me, hui yin, jia hui, vale and amilia.

my group of friends. top: sanjana, vale, waany, yeeboon. bottom: amilia and me. =)

us again.

waany and me.

me, waany and yeeboon.

waany and me.

2 vales.

entire class with a few people block.

sis, me and mum.

my dream car~~ or should i say, "one of my dream cars!!"

hahas. ok ok.

done blogging.

-all about me and snowy. =D-

sians

2007-06-29T22:30:00.000+08:00

cause mum wasn't in the mood to do mid night shopping, the entire plan was cancel. TSK! so sad.. =(

anyway. went to school for CSA lecture, then POM tutorial. got a B+. =) i'm rather satisfied. for the fact that i studied last minute and still score this. HAHA. ok ok. shan't crap. then went for lunch with mins. we keep laming and laughing. pulled her to my lecture. and she sat there do macro. today's lecturer is like one of the best. at least i understand. =x then went home with mjr de. =D POWER OF MJR! ^^

left econs and csa results. but so far, i'm quite pleased with my results. =) though there's room from improvement.... erms.. hahas. i know i can do it. but with my laziness.. ok ok. maybe not so well. but i'm praying. GIVE ME BANKING AND FINANCE!!! hahas. i'll go be a broker. HAHA..

ok. i'm so lazy to post pictures. so soon yeah?

hahas.. =)

done blogging.

-she doesn't know what she wants. =(-

omg!

2007-06-29T17:30:00.001+08:00

MID NIGHT SHOPPING!! TONIGHT!! WHO WOULD SAY NO? AND WHO CAN RESIST IT?!?! TSK..

erm..

2007-06-28T23:17:00.000+08:00

just another unwanted person on earth.

PLEASE. take me home.

-sigh-

2007-06-28T21:16:00.000+08:00

went to school for presentation. i'm WOMEN IN BLACK. =) i'll post the pics up soon. took class photo. =D

i'm feeling pretty awful.

-sigh- nothing good is happening to me!!! when will my good results come?!

^{i promise to numb my feelings and myself. i promise to keep everything to myself. i promise not to utter another word of being sad. i promise i'll throw everything aside and concentrate on my studies. i promise. yes.}

selective blogging.

done blogging.

-give me a GPA of 2.5-3.5, i'll dig out my heart and throw it far far away! who wants a broken heart anyway? HAHA-

tired.

2007-06-27T18:37:00.000+08:00

wow. first time i can wake up without my alarm ringing. =) woots~~

first time taking bus to school on wednesday. hahas. feel proud of myself. hahas. then waited for the others to come.

commsk was the first lesson. and you know. english... hais. anyway, the teacher doesn't want us to get our results yet.. so she starts on lesson. and we were like. -.-" i had to present our discussion today. and i got the teacher blurred. cause i didn't say "percent" when there were like so many percentage. oops~ anyway, got my result. at least it was better than i expected. =) and you know i always screw up english. and first time in my life~~~ my EL has like 30 plus upon 50 for an essay~~~ haha. must bring back show mdm wee~~ hahas. but.. ya. still a damn freaking C~! ><

went ITAS for lunch. had like western food. was so freaking pissed off about 2 things. firstly, the food was served so slow. and there's a "dog" beside me. sniffing his gf from the start when they queue. -.-" i was feeling so freaking awkward la. TSK~ i complaint to min min. hahas. then after lunch, met mins and toots. then met dum.. then went to slack in library. oh ya~! saw aloy too~~ hahas.

then went for accounting lesson. results time~ 16 score A. and i'm one of them~~~ hahas. then had trial balance practice.. erms.. abit don't understand. lols. but finally, i did~~ hahas. =) then went to do CSA project. =) tmr got presentation~~ wheee~~

went home. but before that, went library borrow comic. =)

-sigh- woke up halfway during my sleep last night. =S horrible. terrible dream.

done blogging.

-feel so bitchy~~~-

=S

2007-06-26T15:22:00.000+08:00

i wonder why i'm so tired these few days. TSK! can't even stay awake during the two hour lecture. ><

went to school with crystal, hk and xl. that girl pon her lecture! haha. ok ok. then went for econs lecture. the lecture was short. but it would be even shorter if some irritating brats will just learnt how to keep their mouth shut! -argh-

then went for APEL. i tell you! i'm so in love with my APEL teacher! he really makes you laugh the entire period. so funny. =) after that, went to hand in my commsk's group outline.

went TM to buy button long sleeve shirt. i need to wear formal this thursday!! -argh-but thank god. i'll be wearing pants instead of skirt. ^^ hahas.

came home. do my csa powerpoint. i didn't even know need to do. -.-" oh well. shall rush through accounting homework later. ><

tml will get 2 results. and mins, don't worry, i'll join you soon. =P or probably, i'll get worse than you. >< accounting!!! i want to know my accounting results!! ><

done blogging.

-i wish. i wish. i wish. erms. wish for?? ME!-

lame-ing day~

2007-06-25T17:02:00.000+08:00

my maid is back~~ it's the day when i officially stop doing housework. WOOTS~ lol. anyway, went sakae for dinner yesterday.. then came home. back to school.

woke up like 7.10. then quickly prepare to leave for school with hk. reach school like so damn freaking early. about 8? then went to the lab, make sure my project is perfectly fine. then went to hand in my project with hk's group. on our way, saw sy. then we slack together. his lesson starts about 9. so he left first. so left me and hk so start our lame-ness. and yap. the results of boredom is as shown in the following pictures.

the story goes:
it all started when hk was complaining she is tired and needed a bolster. so she hugs the chair. and realised she could only touch her fingers. being bored. i followed her.

ta da~~~ me~!

then we decided we ought to take some pictures of ourselves. and so....

me and her.

us again~

then she decided to sit and act like a tai tai....

she trying to act tai tai. =P

then we decided to take everything that we see in the library.. so we did.....

i was taking a picture of my bag and she went "my finger". LOL

"stupid camera. take a picture of me. i take you back! haha!!!"

and so. we decided to take more pictures of the library...

the library's window.

hk taking a photo of the dustbin.

shelves of books.

hk taking a picture of it too.

what si that? space ship? no~~~ it's the lamp~!

she so slow. still taking photo of the books. =x

that light spoilt~. hor!! who broke it? LOL.

took picture of the lights and hk went "HELLO~~" hahas..

took the picture of the ceiling.

and she took a picture of me looking up.

ooh ooh~~!! what's that??! do you see it?? got many many stars~! =x who am i kidding?

what's she looking at then? her hand? or something she's holding? lols. guess!!

that's her. taking photo of... erms.. don't know. =x

and the story ends, when we decided to go mac for breakfast...

and so, we walked to mac for breakfast. then we started chatting. hahas. after talking to her, i realised what my sis may think of me. CUTE~ hahas. come on. which younger/youngerst sibling won't wish to have the attention of the elder/eldest sibling. ok. maybe not you. or you. or YOU. but i do. =) especially now that my relationship with my sis is SUPER good. yaps. i love it. =) in fact, i love her more than i do.. hahas. =) but when i sent her this, "mei mei love jie jie", on msn. she always give me that =.=" face. -heartbreak- lols.

after that, went back school met crystal and xl. then went for lecture. during accounting lecture, i was so bored. so msg hk. hahas. then went for lunch at....MENSA 2!! hahas. then went for meenachi's lesson. erms. commsk isn't as bad as i thought it will be. in fact we finally end early.. HAHA. =) after that, took cab home.

will be receiving most of my results this week. -sigh- this is so sucky! i feel as if i'm taking back my 2006 mid year test. with like 5 Ds! haha. broke my record man. =) and i told my teacher, "at least this shows that even if i don't study, i still can fail with D7." and her reply was, "so if you study, you would have like B3..." -.-" speechless. hahas.

ok ok. done blogging.

-just want you to know, that there is still someone waiting for you secretly. hoping you would come back.-

back to real life.

2007-06-24T16:42:00.000+08:00

gosh. school reopens tml. it's just not fair. secondary school kids and primary school children have like almost a month of break. and i only have 2 weeks. which one entire week i spend my time on projects. -argh-

just realised that most freshies just couldn't get used to poly life. and of course, same goes with me. poly life is almost like a routine. wake up, go school, go home and rest, sleep. wake up, go school, go home and rest, sleep.. or once in awhile, it'll be wake up, go school, stay back do project, go home and rest, sleep. wake up, go school, stay back do project, go home and rest, sleep.. then for some days, it'll be wake up, go school, go home do homework, sleep. wake up, go school, go home do homework, sleep.. ok. this is how my life goes. cause i don't have any cca or stuff.

another thing that i just noticed is that, i'm not exactly super duper close to my classmates the way i am close to my mjr schoolmates. it's like when lessons begin, we go "hello..... haha.. hoho..." and we go all out to joke with tutors or make some tutors angry. and when the day ends, we just go "bye~ see you guys tml...". but in secondary school, we will still hang out after school. probably in some shopping malls or in the prefect room. but nope. the last time i went out with my classmates were.... erms.. 2nd week of school? ya. around there.

now i know why. why they say that poly trains you to meet the real world, and secondary school is just like another primary school kind of thing. i guess, it's just time to be more independent. and just pray that i still can like pour my troubles out on my secondary school friends. YES YOU! WHOEVER IS READING THIS! lols. ma fan ni le. =) meh will always love you~~~ =)

ok. enough of damn!-school-is-reopening-tml attitude. hahas. spent my day playing games. and looking for new phones. =X guess what. saw this sony ericsson phone, W960i. it has a phone memory of 8GB~ like wt*. and the camera is 3.2MP with 3x digital zoom. not forgetting auto focus. of course it has shake control too.. LIKE WT*. beautiful phone, isn't it? lols. =)

oh well. shan't update le.

oh oh. show you my dream shoe. lols. from river island. if i'm not wrong it's about 170 bucks. lols.

done blogging.

-what am i? oh ya. i'm a bitch. =)-

sigh

2007-06-23T20:21:00.000+08:00

would you even understand how i was feeling yesterday? probably no. -sigh- forget it. from today onwards, life is going to be tougher. and i guess more things will be kept within me. =) don't worry. i'll stay strong. i'll walk through this. i will...

yesterday's shopping really made me broke. so i had to stay home today. SLACK super alot. =)

ok. pictures of the clothes i bought yesterday. =)

my black turtle sleevelss.

how it looks like.

my pull and bear plain shirt. =)

done blogging.

-can i ever survive without you? saying can is lying to myself.-

just a bitch.

tired.

2007-06-22T22:39:00.000+08:00

i'm tired.
i'm pretty sick of keep repeating this whole damn routine.
why can't life just go on smoothly?!

damn. no one to grumble to. ><

kindly, take me away.

~~the world is always fair and beautiful.~~

stupid sentence. so not true~!

TSK~

2007-06-22T21:15:00.000+08:00

woke up like super early. i have only like 5 hours of sleep. >< in the end took cab to school. thought i'll be late. in the end, i'm not. whee~~

did project. discuss COMMSK. wasn't that bad. after that, rushed home. went to send a e-mail, sign up for my CSA. then went to out with sis and her friend. =)

went vivo. did shopping and candy empire. then went secret recipe for lunch. after that, went shopping. =) i bought my laptop cover. eeew~ the material sucks la. then went this restaurant that sells herbal stuff. also not nice. but my desert wasn't bad. =)

then went forever 21. then topshop. nothing nice. =( went pull and bear. WOOTS~ wanted to buy like 3 shirts. in the end, only bought 2. worth it. went esprit. nothing nice. then mango sale. so squeezy. >< bought a super nice black turtle neck sleeveless. =) so nice can?!?! hahas. ok. finally feeling broke.

next sat, might be working. but at sengkang. dum say i siao. -.-" but ya. really damn far. but pei dar ma. so just go lo. =)

oh well. CSA project got to hand in super early. so i have to go school early. @#$#^%!%&&@ don't know what to say. -speechless-

done blogging.

-foul mood-

='((

2007-06-21T15:18:00.001+08:00

^{tears.
that's all i see.}

=(

2007-06-20T20:23:00.000+08:00

was able to do some catching up with crystal, dum and dar. though we are in the same campus, we hardly do any meeting up. ok. maybe not with dum and crystal. but i hardly get to see dar. =( so yaps, we went to marina square.

met dum and crystal at 1. then went to meet dar at city hall. we all were guessing what dar wearing. both of them guess green. i guess blue. then dum guess correctly. in the end, i treat them ice cream. =( stupid dar~ =x hahas.

then we were chatting talking about school and stuff. then jc came along to join us. then went to bowl lo. LOL. i won dum for first round, second and third round my hand become weak so didn't score. =( worse~! i broke my damn nail. -argh- @#!^%&$#@ oops. =x

then eve, her cousin and qiqi came to join us. then went to arcade to play. crystal and dar play this music thingy. then i was sitting down. then a group of guys came, and one guy stand beside me. so i gave up my sit. and only to find that he looks so like... hms. my heart started to pound faster, but a part of me just feel the saddness deep within. -sigh- then i help look after eve's cousin. she don't want to listen to me. TSK~

then went home lo. eeew~ i so miss them can?? especially cong and eve. cause they aren't in TP!!! =(

pictures time.

me and bro. how long have you not seen him on this blog? since grad night? LOL

me, dar, and bro.

crystal and me~ =D

the 3 guys act cute~~~~ EEEW~~~ *act disgusted* LOL

me, crystal and eve~~

cong acting cute while i'm taking my broke nail. it bleed can?! LOL.

a pic of school taken from the project room i booked that day. =D

wore bro's nike dunk. not bad hor? LOL. =D

eve's cute cousin, qiqi and eve.

^{i apologise. i'm afraid i can't forget it all. you just keep appearing in my mind. you're totally driving me crazy. whatever i do, whatever i see, wherever i am, it just reminds me of you. i'm not trying to get you back of whatever. i know it's over. i'm trying to move on. i'm trying my damn bloody best. but i just can't~~!!! i miss you. sorry for being a damn f*cking bitch.}

my damn thumb hurts~~~ ><

done blogging.

-all i can do is just hold on to those memories. =(-

me~

2007-06-19T23:12:00.000+08:00

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day 4 of being home alone. =)

2007-06-19T18:36:00.000+08:00

was so happy when i manage to d/l my dreamweaver trial. apparently, i tried to make my blogskin using dreamweaver. gosh! i finally understand how tough it is to do a blogskin. and i think it's impossible to use dreamweaver to make one. =x but my turn out fine. ^^ anyway, i think i return everything to my CSA teacher. i had to explore the dreamweaver myself from the scratch. eeew~~~

woke up on time today, then rush to school. i love going school during holidays! cause i don't have to stand in a long queue. hahas. anyway, i was the first. and ya. 2 ah ma stand in front of me. CUT MY QUEUE. so what if they are old?! they aren't very old lo. -argh- fine. being a courteous girl, i gave way to them. hmph.

went to the library. and 3 people were in the project room i booked. i didn't dare to chase them out, so i waited for my friends to come. and eventually, sanjana chased them out. hahas. we did CSA. it wasn't that bad. it's productive!! ^^ apparently, we stayed beyond the time that we booked, and we got chased out too. >< now i know, "what goes round, comes round" means. LOL.

thinking that the library is very cold, we went out to do our project. manage to finish the basic things. so now we left the pictures. after that we went home.

gosh. skipping breakfast and not having a proper lunch sucks! and yap. i skip breakfast and didn't have a proper lunch again. >< so i went home feeling weak, and having a stupid gastric. sians. came home did the housework. and finally have time to play game. ^^ the game is so freaking addictive can?!?! -TSK- and you know what? yk said i slimmed down!!!! you know how happy i am?!?! though he kinda meant i'm fat before, but at least i've slimmed down!!! SO HAPPY~!!!! hahas. =D i wanna be slimmer.. can? can? LOL.

done blogging.

-'ve the urge to break down.-

day 3 of being home alone. =(

2007-06-18T13:32:00.000+08:00

sorry for not updating for.. erms.. few days?

been rather addicted to my game. keep trying to level up. no wonder some people can sit in front of the comp for so long just doing nothing but playing games. LOL.

yesterday was father's day. happy papa day. =) though it's sunday and all fathers ought to be home. my dad isn't. he still had to go to work like 8 plus a.m. -.-" so we had to postpone the lunch at zenden till next week, if he isn't working on sunday. -sigh- stupid port. why is it so busy?! -ARGH- at least he came home early, so we can go for dinner. we went to hong kong cafe. gosh. the pan fried carrot cake rocks man! after that went to aunt house.. had mini family gathering. omg! my baby darling is so cute. =) hahas. i made funny faces and she follow me. =) hahas. cute little darling. <3 hahas. and her voice is like super high. i think it's beyond the highest note i can reach. ><

today, couldn't really wake up on time.. >< but forced myself out of bed. then rush to school. met bahs, then went to library first. the rest came, and we started discussing. for like quite a short while. then went home..

i'm like so bored. >< thanks to tw bro for entertaining me yesterday. HAHA. =) didn't know i'm so fortunate to have many friends. and yaps. i miss my angel. =) but somehow, the angel flew away and is now MIA. =x hahas. =P

done blogging.

-i've given up the hope. and chose the right track. =)-

day 2 of being lonely: advanterous day.

2007-06-14T20:34:00.000+08:00

woke up like 9.55. lols. was quite late to me. so i quickly wake up and mop the floor. GOOD GIRL~~~ hahas. then when sis woke up, we had breakfast together. then about 12 plus, we left house.

we head to city hall, went to raffles city's food junction for lunch. erm.. no comments. =x then went to the basement to buy my crumpler's bag~~! WOOTS~! hahas. ok. still look big on me. lols. then went to buy ben and jerry. i treat my sis. but somehow, it's me who finish it. lols.

we walked from city hall to clarke quay. DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW FAR IT IS?! and with the weather that hot.. erms.. ya. i'll rather walk at night. at least the scenery will be nicer. and i bet, IT'S WAY NICER THAN THE ONE AT ESPLANADE. hahas. somehow, we were looking for a place to reserve for daddy's day.

then went to merchant road. then wanted to take cab to nanson road. but the driver as blur as us.. so we decided to walk. then went to the next street. then we wanted to take cab from centre mall to nanson road. AGAIN, the driver don't know where. so we went the next road.. this road no green or red men.. so we ran across. =x then finally found the place. -.-" after so long.. but no nice place to eat. so we went to gallery hotel to sit.

sis and i went into this Gcentre. apparently it's only for those guest. and the guy chase us out. -.-" so we went to the restaurant to see. ZENDEN. not bad. =) it's pretty classy. so we decided to make reservations. then we ordered drinks.. ya~ after such a FREAKING long walk. -.-" i had SAFE sex on the beach. and sis had blue sunset. my is mocktail and hers is cocktail. lols. took many pictures there. lols. my drink wasn't that bad. =) her drink is like... eeew~~~ she likes it though. it was sour at first, then bitter. cause of the tequilla. i don't like the bitter taste. lols..

after that, took cab to great world. she went to work, while i waited for mummy to off work. then i came home with mum.. =) gosh. i fell asleep in the cab. so tired. ><

show you how the place looks like.. =P

part of the restaurant.

another part.

my mocktail. it looks so nice. ^^

sis's blue sunset. but i don't see any blue colour. apparently it was blue, but the orange juice makes it green. lols. sis says it's nice. =) and if you're observant, you'll realise the cup is slanting. LOL.

the hotel. =)

gee. more pictures up soon.

done blogging.

-i'll always wish to stand by your side. but i never had the chance. ='(-

day 1 of being alone at home.

2007-06-13T21:57:00.000+08:00

slept like 1 plus this morning. stayed up with my maid. but somehow, i went to bed first. she slept at 2 a.m.

then, this morning, she came to kiss us goodbye before she left. lols. eeew. i'm already missing her. =(

then about 9.15, she called to wake sis up. and sis thought she call from the plane. LOL. and ya. it turns out she missed the flight. haha. oh well. sis then left for work, so left me alone. i played game. 10 plus, my maid called. she was feeling bored. hahas. so talked to her for awhile, while she was waiting for the plane.

about 1 plus, i went to simei to buy the DVD-RW. then went to buy my lunch. =) on my way out, saw dum, jc, rainer, sis, penguine and ren. lols. then went home.

ALONE AGAIN! -.-" so turn on my music full blast. but too loud.. -.-" gosh. so ya. then play game till about 6 plus. then went to sweep floor, mop floor. met sis at white sand. GREEN MEN AGAIN!! haha. they look more like turtle than me in crumpler's bag. =D so me, sis and mum had HEI SUSHI. so like sakae. lols.

then came home and watch deal or no deal. ok. woots~~~

=)

done blogging.

-i'm addicted to you. =)-

wheee~~

2007-06-12T14:50:00.000+08:00

on sunday night, i was reading this blog. and do you know what? dunkin donuts actually still exist in singapore! OMG! hahas. i'm not going to tell you where and how to buy. beg me first. =P lols. i'm not so mean. anyway, i heard that you got to order online. and they'll deliever to either city hall or bedok mrt station. and you go there to collect. try checking out the website. i'll post it up soon. =)

yesterday
i woke up. and my eyes were immediately glued to the comp. ya. pirates 2. i love pirates 2 more than the others. the first time i watch, i was laughing my heart out. and ya. truely funny. johnny depp is just so sexy. lols.

met sh, then took to kallang to get 2 boxes from tt for putting drinks and food. then took bus down to parkway and walk to our pit. soon after, jz and puay came along. then me and jz went to collect the food. saw this HUGE blah blah dragon. the family of the lizard. erms. ya. then we were reaching, and i forgotten to bring the money. so sh had to bring the money. then we went to pay. fish came along soon. and we decided to start the fire first. somehow, we started eating. =x

tt, jj, claron and mw came. then they went fishing. lols. so left us to cook again. more came. then when night came, even more arrived. gui and tay came too. lols. almost all came. about 21 of us? means 18 weren't able to make it. -sigh- we played dai dee and black jack. apparently, i keep losing. ><

about 10.30, me and sh left. omg! i have a blister la. lols. i complaint to sl. and he say i'm pro. hahas. yes, i'm pro! ^^

guess what happened next? 1.18 a.m, tt send me a msg. he caught a fish. -.-" lols.

yaps. i loved the beach. and this time, i went to the beach with a different feeling. =) more relaxed and happy. HAHAH!!

today
seriously. are guitarist weirdos or what? no offence k? lols. went to spluch again. and saw this video of this guy playing a guitar with 10 strings! like wth!?! and he is like all of us. 10 fingers. but he can play with 10 strings!! CAN YOU? ok. maybe you can. but i can't! lols. and ya.. once again, no offence. i know got some guitarists are reading this blog. AGAIN, NO OFFENCE!!! ><
here is the video. =)

then, i saw this entry. about this house that was built to create a opitcal illusion. erms.. ya. AMAZING! it really looks as if it's melting. like those melted chocolate in the shape of a building. =x

melting building

ok. then i read this blog. the blogger is from malaysia. but his english is like WAY WAY WAY better than mine! he was commenting about his trip to jakarta. and ya. had quite a good laugh.

trip to jakarta

ok. left house about 11 with my maid. went to town. did many errands. ha! i finally got my leather slipper~~! woots~! i'm feeling so broke now. and i meant REALLY REALLY broke. -sigh- feel like just locking myself home. =(

tml, my maid is leaving. and i'll be my family's MARIA for the next 12 days. -.-" omg! i'm going to start hating this period of my life. lol.

oh well.

done blogging.

-i wish i could go back the right path. but certain things, just can't turn back. it's all meant to be. and so be it.-

proper entry

2007-06-10T14:30:00.000+08:00

let's talk about yesterday.

yesterday
woke up like 10 plus. then went for my interview around 11.30. then i came to this company. ya. the same company that i went in raffles place early this year. the same company that ask me to promote water. in the end, i didn't go for the interview. i told the girl that i wasn't interested at all.

went home, slack. had lunch. slack. then went out for movies with my mum, sis and maid. ocean 13 is a nice show. it's more about planning. quite a funny show. and yes! brad pitt is so OMG! lols. i love the ending. =P "see you when i see you." lols.

after that went shopping. omg~! i bought a cardigon for 19 bucks! JEANS MATERIAL!! hahas. =) then went to fish and co for dinner. went crumpler to choose a bag. but i think i'm too small a size. all the big big size bag makes me look like a snail. -.-"

came home. mood swing.. ya da ya da ya da...

today
woke up at 9. wished my beloved SHIT lady a happy birthday. lols. yap. a year older~! hahas.

went out with my maid to simei to get some things before she go home this wed. -sigh- the thought of her going home, just send shivers. the thought of washing clothes, dishes.... erms.. ya. like i'll ever do those. hahas. ok ok. the thought of mopping floor, sweeping floor, ironing clothes..... (i do these k?!) ya. god. less freedom. got to be home everynight. aiyo.. cannot stand it. =(

tml is monday. my class bbq~ not sure if many will go. but ya. just hope. =)

last night. many things went through my mind. then i realised that there are many things that i actually fear. =) of all, the greatest fear i have is loneliness. hahas. it all started one this raining day, when i was all alone at the bus stop..... hahas. hey! it's true.. but ya. who cares?!

done blogging.

-sorry. i didn't mean to.-

first day of holiday

2007-06-08T16:30:00.000+08:00

holiday is like finally here. you can say that i'm not looking forward to holiday. cause i think school is fun. hahas. but ya. still, it's holiday. =)

was planning many things. like catching up with ex classmates and other friends and doing projects. but it seems like my plan has to change. apparently, i've been shortlisted by this company. and they have been calling me umpteen times times, to go for interview. only God knows what kind of company is that. and ya. today, they call again. i'm supposed to go for an interview today. but i lied that i had something on. and got an earful from mum cause i wasn't keen in working. -.-" so the interview is postponed to tomorrow,noon. -sigh- wish me luck~!

spent my day at home. sleeping, eating and using computer. and ya. was reading Spluch again. seriously, you guys ought to read this blog. it's like full of interesting things. =)

new video from spluch, about this building in Britain.
video

then, there's a new blog i've been visiting. kennysia.com. his blog is like damn crappy? hahas. this should really keep me entertain. =P

ok ok. done blogging.

-just love walking in the rain.-

exams over~!

2007-06-07T21:09:00.000+08:00

yesterday, went to great world to watch movie. went to take tickets from sis first. then went through yoshinoya. and guess who i saw?!?! VINCENT NG~~! omg! hahas.

pirates wasn't that bad. lols.. only that it's still as lame as the previous show. still fighting. lols. johnny depp still as sexy. orlando bloom still as attractive. hahas. after show when to look for sis, then went home together.

slept at 12.30 this morning. was talking to tp. don't know how long never talk to him. hahas. anyway, was flipping through my notes only. hahas.

today, went to school. was waiting for hk and xl to go to class. but saw wn on the way, so go class with him. lols. went to sit the paper. wasn't that bad la. anyway, after i finish, i hand in my paper. then after me, no one is allowed to leave. wow!! hahas. was having a small discussion outside class. hahas.

went home, then waited for crystal. went town with crystal. did shopping. she bought shoes, shirt and shirt? then went taka buy my dessert. after that, met jerald. went to watch movie. hahas. so long never see jerald sia. hahas. so took pictures.

picture time. =)

ah fat, me and crystal~

us~!!

done blogging.

-damn! she's taken~! =(-

-sigh-

2007-06-06T12:28:00.000+08:00

WHEE~~ finally my most hated subject is over~! hahas. CSA!!

seriously, i don't see the purpose in asking us to learn all the theory. i prefer hands on. and next term's hands on is on excel. ^^ ok ok. talk about today's test. was doing last minute revision. as usual. from 11-12.30 a.m only. then i went to bed.

this morning, i didn't really do any reading. and went to sit for my paper. i finish in like 18 minutes! -.-" so i sat down and flip through my answers again, till like 9.24. still so early, so i flip through again. at 9.30, 1/4 the lecture theater was gone. then 9.45, i left to. ^^ ya. totally sucks. CSA is a GONER~! hahas. and that stupid SL of mine still say can pass. and he told me that just before i went in. -.-" i think can't la. lols.

ok ok. after the paper, went to wait for dum at mushroom, with mins, xl, hk and crystal. then after that went to TM. had early lunch at the foodcourt. then went to walk around at toys r us. eeew~ they have many cute toys~! hahas. and guess what. precious thoughts still have my HIPPO!! hahas. =)

tml last paper! accountings. woots~! but i'm going out this afternoon for a movie with mum. =) hahas.

done blogging.

-it's driving me to my wits end-

damn it!

2007-06-05T17:57:00.001+08:00

-argh- my freaking shoulder pain still not gone yet!!! 3rd day and it's not any better. it's like getting worse! damn it~!! >< -sigh-

POM~

2007-06-05T11:29:00.000+08:00

slep at 1 last night. without the knowledge at my fingertips. >< -sigh- one thing for sure, i haven't change this habit of mine. still studying at the last minute. ><

sis's friend came like nearly midnight. and when i went to bed, he is still here. -.-" all thanks to the stupid game. hahas. oh well..

woke up at 7.30. went to school for the test which was held in lecture theater. POM paper sucks big time! the only section i know is the mcq. and while i was trying hard to concentrate analysing my case study, my classmate next to me keep shaking his leg. and the entire row of seats just keep shaking. how to concentrate?!?! >< -sians-

came home. just book my class bbq pit. ^^ hope many will come. you know. hardly will MEH organise such events. and when she organises it, it'll be like once in a blue moon, kind of thing. hahas. =P ok ok.

tml is csa. and i better do well for it. no matter how much i dislike it. hais. the creation of computer is a brilliant one. but the idea of asking me to understand the parts of the computer and how it works is a stupid one! =x i love hands on. but i hate theory! computer theory sucks~!! -argh-

ok ok. better study hard for it!!! As! As! As!!!! ^^

done blogging.

-drowning in her own tears-

boring~

2007-06-04T12:01:00.000+08:00

went to school for test for only 1 hour.

econs paper wasn't bad. can manage it. =) after that, came home with hui kia.

i'm like so bored. so visited spluch again. =) found this youtube video damn amazing. how can 2 people play one guitar?! gosh! only saw 2 people play one piano.. ok ok. let me share.

ok ok. done blogging.

shall study for POM

-nothing matters to me now.-

2nd day of celebration..

2007-06-03T20:26:00.000+08:00

so funny. last night dylan was complaining why i didn't go down. lols. anyway, was supposed to go down today.. but i didn't. hahas.

stayed home. study for my test tml. i'm not really prepared.. i think econs need to think like super deeply. lols. oh well. pray hard i do well. =) cause i so love econs!! hahas.

tw bro wish me happy birthday. he thought it was today. lols.

went out about 6.. went to ezyvideo to borrow dvds. then went for dinner. but ya. i had super terrible gastric.. but after dinner, everything was ok. went geylang to buy durian. ^^

woots.. this year's birthday isn't that bad. =)

i'll look forward to next year's birthday. firstly, tw bro baking cake. secondly, i'll ask dylan to treat me to drink. =P WHE~~

done blogging.

-i've given up.... -

my day. =)

2007-06-02T23:08:00.000+08:00

apparently, before the clock strike 12. about 9.30, my beloved lh brother send me a msg wishing my happy birthday. ^^ hahas.

when it strike 12, sis, mum, maid, daddy wished me. friends online like dum and jared count down for me. ^^ then jc bro, dar, eve, mins, xing lun, hui kia, jian yao. even dylan wish me.HA! he wanted to treat me. those who msg me are christine, cheng fu, SASA, potato, valerie tan, feng yao, claron, wesley and my beloved treasurer, jing yi~! hahas. ^^ pearleen also!! ^^

anyway, woke up nearly noon. had pizza for lunch. did a little revision. so not in the mood to study. then came 3 plus, dylan order me to go down. -.-"

went out with my family to orchard, swensen for dinner. after 4 years, since sec 2, it's my first time celebrating with them. =) and mum said she wish i was out with friends. -.-" oh well.. bought a cake from chocz. then went granny's house to cut cake.

many more wishes after that.. silin, qian ying, and my darling puay!!! i thought she forgotten. =( but yaps, she remembered.. ^^ from my sl, bing xin and my primary school ex classmate, jian han. =)

woots. this birthday isn't that bad. cause i still know that my sis do love me no matter how many times we quarrel. =) and i love her too! hahas.

puay is sweet. so i love her! hahas. and this 21st birthday, i'm going to make her send me 21 types of "happy birthday".. hahas. =P cause i made lh bro did this, this year. so i'm making her do that on my 21st birthday.. ^^ wheee~~

done blogging.

-i waited all these while. and only to realise, i waited in vain.. =(-

P.S: i feel God DAMN OLD! ><

june.

2007-06-01T17:34:00.000+08:00

it's june. and today is first of june. so fast. >< half the sem gone.

i'm so not in the mood to celebrate my birthday. damn it. it's like before mid sem test. who would even want to celebrate with me? sigh. ><

went to school with dum, hk and xl. dum and hk don't believe no one ask me out. -.-" wah lao. make me feel so date-less. hahas. never mind.

met vale, jy and waany before lecture. then me and vale went in first. sh came and gave me my advance present. WOOTS!! yap. a pair of earrings. love her! =)

CSA lesson was hell boring. i could doze off. but the teacher kept us busy by asking us to copy notes. smart. attendance was taken for this lecture. i wonder why.

after that, went of lunch in AS. then went to library to study. didn't study in the end, was busy chatting.

went for pom lecture after that. my beloved amelia (bahs) gave me a present too. =) thanks alot. =)

came home with sis..

ok ok. picture time!!

jing yee, me and amilia

me, amilia and sanjana

sis pointing to arnolo. a new cartoon character..

ARNOLO~~

a damn nice looking cake from canelé.

another nice cake..

this is the game that is reflected on the floor. it's a nice pic. lols

me~~ =) going to be a year older tml. =( i feel old.

oh ya. i saw *ahem*.. =) deep down was feeling high. but ya. it's so wrong. =( i know.. oh well.

i'm not happy at all!! i hate it when i got to study on my birthday! i hate it when i'm a year older! worse... i don't feel happy on my birthday eve. =x

done blogging.

-i love.. erms. *shhh* secret. =)-

sigh

2007-06-01T13:05:00.000+08:00

damn it. i'm missing you. again. =(

sorry.

i didn't mean to. =(

^^

2007-05-31T20:59:00.000+08:00

ok ok. blogging about thursday.

thursday
went to school with crystal. took cab again. -.-" like so broke la. lols. anyway, went for POM lesson in the morning. he look through our draft for the project. then we were released.

sat ourside the theater for a break. then went for accounting. thought there was a mock test. in the end, it's open book and open discussion test. woots~ hahas. after that, did class work, then check the answers for tutorial. then went home.

asked my maid to cook maggi noodle. somehow, there were many insects inside the soup la. eew~ think something wrong with the seasoning. so had her to cook another bowl. lols.

after that went to cineleisure with mum, sis and my maid. wanted to watch zodiac at 3.35. but we were late. so had to watch the 6.30 show. then went paragon. mum wanted to try the canelé. got so many chocolates. had a plate of ice cream. green tea cake, strawberry cake. woots. so sinful la. ><

after that, there is this sensor thingy game. means there's a projector that reflects the game on the floor, with the help of sensor, you actually can play the game. lols.

after awhile, went to back to cine to buy popcorn and watch the movie. 1 third of the show, i was closing my eyes. yucks la. the way the killer kill the people. sadist man. and the case is still open. damn shit. >< and it's real story. disgusting la.. eew..

after that, came home. was so sleepy. so after bath, went to sleep. lols.

today
woke up, study econs. after lunch, went to sleep. wake up, study econs again. >< gosh. feel so no life. lols.

2 days more. =)

pictures will be up soon.

done blogging.

-looking at you from far. =)-

random

2007-05-31T12:26:00.000+08:00

i know this entry is going to be super duper random. but ya. i just wanna blog.. =P

i can't exactly remember what happen on my birthday in sec 1. but i remembered carrying alot of presents home. HAHA! i had like 2 big bags. lols.

then came sec 2. i had to go back to school to do something. then yu ren, alex and cong ask me go prefect room. but there were smoke and the room was so dark. >< so i didn't dare to go in. in the end, i went in, and tohwee baked me a cake!! WOOTS! then they sang birthday song. that was the first time, ever, i spent my day with the prefects. just love them. =)

sec 3 was like one of the best day! hahas. i remember i was camping. the day before, we kayak to some unknown island specially for OBBD. so we spent the night there. so, the next day was my birthday. i woke up, and the first to wish me was MY SINGAPORE CUTIE INSTRUCTOR!! hahas. then came the guys and eve was one of the last few. you know why? cause she slept like a pig and we can't even wake her up. =P hahas. yaps. then kayak back to the main island. on the way to the actual campsite, all of them sang me a song. =) yaps. the second time i spent my day with the prefects. woots! btw, where is my MUD cake? lols.

sec 4, had school in the morning. after school, i went out with qy to do shopping. then went to the beach to meet my classmates. mae, crystal, jia yun, ken, jerald, jordan, xing lun, eve, silin, sh, glenn, and others. i had a cake and the candle is a trick candle. lols. then took taxi to kallang mrt station. yaps. met dan. went bugis to walk around. reach home, i receive a leather wallet! love my sister!!

year 1 of poly. i'm not sure what is happening. but hopefully i'll spend a wonderful day. but damn. i'm so not in the mood to enjoy. cause the following monday is MST! damn it. =(

i might have my new sling bag. ^^

random~

sigh-ing mood. =x

2007-05-29T17:35:00.000+08:00

exams is like coming in a few days. -sigh- i'm not prepared at all!! not at all. =(

went to school by cab. cause the bus queue was so freaking long. -sigh-

first lesson was econs lecture. so sians. bahs slept off. shows how tired she is. then vale tried sleeping, but she couldn't. lols. anyway, today was revision lecture, so it ended early. slack outside the lecture rooms, before going to the next lesson. APEL! hahas. vincent lim is so funny la. plus his hairstyle today make him look even more UNCLE! hahas. =x

had an hour break, before going for CSA make up lesson. today's lesson is so boring. i went online, as usual. but no one to talk to. -sigh-

then waited for hk, crystal and sheldon. while waiting, i was listening to my mp3 and reading a book. DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW LONG I HAVEN'T BEEN READING?! lols. ya. i miss reading. the feeling of trying to put yourself into the shoes of the characters. =) though i love romance stories, but i know that such romantic scene just won't exist in reality. or should i say, IN MY LIFE. hahas.

took cab home. and here i am, home. sat the the lobby, and gave my accounting teacher a call. manage to bring the lesson forward. WOOTS! so i get to go home early tml.. hahas. SLEEP!!

ok. i random topic, I LOVE MC FLY!!! i think their songs aren't that bad. well, like i say, it's a random topic. hahas.

gee. suddenly i had a thought. a thought of giving up. giving up going to uni. going to uni to take up my dream course. a course that is either business or teaching. but.. ya. i don't think i can make it in. cause i have a strong feeling i'm going to screw up my poly life. and a super strong feeling i'm going to screw up my life BIG TIME! gosh. >< -sigh-

ok. i took pictures today, but i'll post it up another day. =)

love love. ^^

done blogging.

-something went wrong. no one knows, but i do.-

school.

2007-05-28T18:23:00.000+08:00

went to school. then went to cheers. waited for xl outside cheers. so me and hk were talking when bomba came. and we took picture with her.. WOOTS~~ lols.

accounting lecture was boring. then had lunch. ka jiao sy. then went for commsk. commsk finally ended before 4.. WOW! hahas. and wed, no commsk. and there's no make up lessons for it. WOOTS~~ hahas.

went home alone. on my way, i saw *ahem*.. WHEEE~~ went to buy stuff for sis. she's sick. hmms.

ok. more pictures for the day~

bomba and me. she stand on my right side cause she wants to show her dimples. lols.

waany, bahs and me~

done blogging.

-when love no longer exist and when hates comes into your life, you know something will go wrong.-

woots~

2007-05-27T17:45:00.000+08:00

yaps. i think it's time to like have more confidence in myself. =)

went out with mum this morning. then came home, started studying POM for my online quiz. it closes at 11.55 p.m. and i just finished it. i got 16!! lols. my class rep told me if i get below 15, i'm more dumb than him. =x lols.

sometimes, while studying. i find happiness in it. cause i know that at the end of this journey, i'll be one step closer to my dreams. =) woots~!

whee~~~ 6 more days!!! ^^

done blogging.

-i have feelings.-

whee~~

2007-05-27T15:15:00.000+08:00

as you can see, i changed my blogskin. cause the other skin has some problems. -sigh-

woke up like nearly 11. slack awhile, then left house to meet mum in town. had coffee club for lunch. had my sandwich. ^^ anyway, after that mum wanted to get me my stuff toy!!woots~~ ya. i'm dying for it. but sad to say, no more. =( after that, went to buy desserts and went home.

i slept for half an hour, then met crystal. took cab to parkway, on the way stop by to meet potato, then go parkway. the stupid taxi driver. so pissed off, then he drive until i get headache. -bish-

went to meet puay, then met norwin and yu ker. went to queue for fish and co. after that, came back and had our tables. woots~~ we kept talking about many RANDOM stuff. from girls to guys back to girls and then guys again. lols. norwin is such a 38. lols. ya. he's no difference from girls. =P lols. he keep suan-ing all of us can? ><

after that, went to meet mummy. then went to mc cafe to talk. lols. keep talking about lower sec days. me, norwin, yu ker and mummy same class ma. lols. damn funny. after that, i went with crystal to withdraw money. then take cab home. while waiting, we talk to puay and norwin. hey. i think if they end up together, they'll make a cute couple. =X -oops- lols.

came home. didn't get scolding. woots. ya. reach home, 11.30. came online. talk to
puay, tp, and tohwee. lols. as the same time, send my survey to my group leader.

gosh. so 2 people already ask me what i want for bday. erms.. i've got nothing in mind. seriously. if you know me well, you'll know what i want. it's so easy to make me happy. =P woots. puay! your's is like the easiest bday present for me. hahas. GODIVA~~~ lols.

ok ok. pictures time~

life size eeyore, pooh and tigger. ^^

fish and co utensils. =x

me and crystal.

potato and me.

potato with huge pooh!

me and potato

nice pic of darling puay!

darling puay and me!

me and potato.. =)

yu ker!!

norwin. without him knowing it. =P

me and mummy! the 2 vales!

the 5 girls.

5 of us again.

me, potato and crystal. ^^

me and puay~

me and a cute sotong stuff toy!!

BVLGARI. =P i took it while waiting for a cab.. at taka. =P

done blogging.

i miss my friends!!!

-admire? or love?-

suey

2007-05-25T21:47:00.000+08:00

woke up like 9.30. i skipped CSA lecture. but i was msging my BAH BAH MAMA. lols. that's amilia. anyway, had a quarrel with my sis. then had lunch and left house immediately.

went to school. met bah bah and valerie outside library. while waiting for them, suddenly hear someone calling me. then turn. ehs! bing xin. lols. went to the library to study for a moment. saw bingxin again. then me and bah bah went to ka jiao him. he's like so slow. lols.

after that went to 7th floor to discuss project. then went for lecture. POM lecture was lame. lols. had my lao gong to msg me!! woots!! ^^ love love!! hahas.

went to cheers with xl. then he say fiona's brother in our school. then i realised it's dylan. so i called out for him. and YES! he is here. lols. =) haven't seen him for a long time. lols.

went home with mjr-ians.

whee~~ sat is here. GOING TO MEET POTATO AND MUMMIE TML!! not sure if puay is coming.. hais. woots.. gonna meet many people tml. CAM WHORE!!!

lols. in a horrible mood. =(

miss me? TA DA~

that's me~

done blogging.

-a smile hides a thousand tears-

tired.

2007-05-24T17:33:00.000+08:00

was suppose to wake up at 7.but i couldn't wake up. so only woke up at 7.30. =x i got prepared and left house. met hk, then met xl on the bus.

saw cailng when i first enter CSA class. CSA is like so boring today. >< then rush for econs. finally we are all earlier than the teaher. lols. for econs today, i was sitting right at the back. lol.

after school, met hk then come home.

wahs. so tired. just woke up. ^^ slept for an hour. HAHAS. =x

i'm pon-ing CSA lecture tml. lols.

done blogging.

-OOPS!-

happy~

2007-05-23T18:29:00.000+08:00

woke up like 7.15. hoping not to fight taxi with others, i left house like at 8 sharp. surprisingly no queue at the taxi stand. so i took a cab to school.

i had the urge to sleep, but the man kept talking to me about school. hey! he is a grad in SP and currently working in KL. and has a civil engineer degree. so i commented that engineering is a hot course, well that's what i thought so. and he told me that now engineers are paid lesser. ooooo.. gee. shows that taxi driver reads more. oh oh. he is working part time for his uncle. hahas. in just a 15 minutes journey, i know so much. HA! and ya. he asked me which year i'm in, my course and blah blah blah. so when i said i'm in business, he said like "so next time you'll be a successful business woman, and i'll see you on business times. and i'll tell myself, that is that smart girl i send to TP." LOL. you know, such sentences can really motivate someone? well, it motivates me at least. =) anyway, when paying the taxi fare, my heartache. $8.50!! shit!

i was like half an hour earlier. so i sat outside the class and did my revision. good girl. ^^ ya. it's a nice environment to study. after that, my classmates came. waited for quite long for the teacher. and apparently, he forgotten today got lesson. so he rush down.

POM lesson. blah blah blah.. commsk.. blah blah.. break. blah. accountings. wahs! the teacher know my name! so this imply i'm either naughty, or, good girl, or i'm easily recognised. -.-" lols. i was playing all the childhood game with valerie. lols. kinda become the centre of attraction. lol.

came home with crystal. listen to her talk about BLAH. lols. came home, did alittle of econs tutorial. talk to bro. he's planning the schedule le. there goes my holiday. >< ehs!!! ehs!!! talk to yao! haha. he is getting better at sweet talking. hahas. oh well.

was planning to pon csa lecture this friday. can't be bothered with it. sians.

ok ok. i've got 2 aims suddenly. ^^ and i know Daddy will give me the power to achieve them. ^^

done blogging.

-i love her. i really do. =X-

short entry.

2007-05-22T16:02:00.000+08:00

shall have a short entry. can't be bothered to write a long entry today, cause i've got to chiong my accounting and POM tutorial. ><

ok. went to school. blah blah blah blah. end school. blah blah blah. did project. blah blah. went library to study. blah. saw alex. talked to him. somehow got to see the interview slot. and ya. don't have my name! >< so i came to a conclusion that i didn't make it. so ya. forget it. =(

i took a form. i really wanna go to vietnam to experience. cause i think it's gonna be damn fun! but ya. i'm like the only one. -sad- oh well.

done blogging.

-you know i'm sad. so stop bugging me!-

P.S: i took only like 4 minutes to write this post. wow!

unlucky. =(

2007-05-21T19:01:00.000+08:00

i finally know the disadvantage of switching your phone to silent mode. >< you know why? cause i switched my phone to silent mode, and i didn't pick up the call from pace setters! now i don't know when is my interview!!! >< -sians-

went to school, while waiting for accounting lecture to start, i saw the happy room guy again. wah lao! did i mention that he laughed at me. and he did it again today. =( i know i'm timid. but no need like that right? =( but, anyway, he's cute. ^^ ok ok. accounting lecture wasn't that bad. i think i understand. and hopefully i will know how to do for my mid sem test? lols. sh and me were laming. we were talking via bluetooth. like writing on the book, take a photo and send via bluetooth. and now my book is officially disfigured. hahas. oh. i realised she loves taking my back view! i bet she's in love with me. =P

anyway, went mensa2 for lunch. wasn't that bad. vale had like uncountable fish bones. hahas. so me and amilia started looking for fish bones. both of us had 2 fish bones. the funniest thing was she said that was the best fish and chips. means she likes fish and chips with fish bones! haha. =P

went for commsk. had essay test today. and i screwed it. cause the research i did wasn't enough to support my points. or should i say, it didn't even suppport my points at all. =( so i screwed my test BIG TIME!! ><

was about to meet crystal, cause she was waiting for me. when suddenly, i saw clari. i had a good talk with her. we started catching up with each other's life. and it's so good to see her! i didn't see her around until CCN day. ^^ miss her!! =) we talked so much until i forgotten crystal was waiting for me. so in the end, both of us went out of biz school. then i left with crystal.

guess who i saw in the mrt? GOU GOU!!! you know how much i miss him mah?!?! so long never crap with him. hahas. didn't talk to him. just wave hi and bye to him. hahs. =x

ok ok. tml got APEL! wheee~~ love VINCENT LIM! hahas.

gosh. i'm praying that the pace setters people will call me. *pray hard* Daddy, blessed me.

done blogging.

-damn unlucky~

random

2007-05-21T09:44:00.000+08:00

all of a sudden, i feel like ending it all.
this feeling sucks big time!

Daddy. i wanna go home. =(

-i'll keeping my fingers cross during the test-

blessed me. =)

boring.

2007-05-20T18:36:00.000+08:00

i'm starting to think life is super boring. other than going to school and studying, there's nothing else to do. >< i wanna work!!! -argh- stupid bro don't let me work in the upcoming roadshows cause they are very far! ><

did research for my commsk test tml. i have no confidence at all. ya. especially when it comes to english. if Daddy is super kind to me, He'll let me pass with a B! HAHA!^^ oh well. i'm still praying hard. B! B! B!!!! =x

15 june, beloved eve is bringing me to a concert. and till now, i don't know how to tell mum, cause i'm sure she'll give a NO!. so.. ya. -sigh-

short entry.

done blogging.

LOVES~

updates~

2007-05-19T11:05:00.000+08:00

enough of the emo-ing. now, it's a proper entry. ^^

thursday
it's obviously not a good day to wear heels. but i totally didn't forsee what will happen later on, i wore my blue heels. went for CSA in the morning. was so boring. cause of the web page thingy. i wanna have my own application too!! lols. oh well.

csa ended late, and all of us were so scare of our econs teacher, we ran up the stairs. and me, running up the stairs in heels! gosh! lucky we went in on time! hahas. it's like first time we manage to reach class on time! WOW! hahas. -claps- =x

after that, i stayed back awhile to wait for crystal.. took cab home. then went out with sis to metro sale. i bought a pair of shoes, a pair of jeans and mask!! hahas. sis paid for them. =P

reached home, slack for awhile, and rush through POM homework. =x

friday
went for csa lecture. wasn't even paying attention. amilia and me keep crapping. dennis best! he record the entire lecture and slept off. lols. so crap la.

after that, went for POM tutorial. then yeeboon tried to tricked our tutor with the M.T M.T to test his co-ordination. and one of my classmate spoil the fun by telling our teacher the joke about the game. DOTS! anyway, we went through tutorial. then we were released.

went to meet sh. then went for ccn day. bought bun from sy. hahas. then went to walk around. met glenn. then they wanted to go for the haunted house. but somehow, we didn't. glenn study, me and sh keep playing lame games. then many people came to promote their products. then some sls, came to promote the happy room. so we went. and damnit la! it's like haunted house la. i scream my head off can?!?! the entire place was so dark. and the stupid sl don't let me go out!! >< so i had to like run out. >< DOTS!

after that, glenn went for test, me and sh walked around. then went to withdraw money cause we are both broke. i bought candy floss and brownie. then bought a flower for sh and another for crystal.

i went home after that.. on the comp, reply bro. then went to watch tv. waited super long for them. then i met them. reached marina bay, i play the game with all of them. lols. then cong, hk, toots and xl not here yet. so we took 400 to chong pang first. hahas. so xing fu can? got seng yong and daddy to cook for me. daddy cooked prawns, seng yong peel the shell for me. hahas. then he also cooked scrambled egg with chicken. hahas. so being small is good. ^^ while eating, we said alot of jokes. recalled the camps we went. gosh. i miss obbd!!!! seriously, i don't mind going back. lols. then hk, toots and xl came.

i thought what happen to cong. cause he didn't answer the phone. sms also never reply. -.-" in the end, he called and say he was playing badminton. -bish- after steamboat, went to bowl. wahs. my scores finally 50 plus again! hahas. so happy. ^^ we were playing lame games. then me and dar play the baby baby baby check. then i win mahs, then i suppose to yeah yeah. but i end up slapping him. =x the slapping was suppose to be vampire vampire vampire check. lols.

after bowling, bro came. then i went to wait for him. then go upstairs. watched them play pool. then dar and me too bored, so we started singing. hahas. =x hk cannot stand us. hahas. i totally forgot all the songs. >< only remember the lion king's song and abit here and there. lols. not bad lehs. i still can reach some high notes! WOOTS! hahas. bro bought drinks. but i drank lemon tea instead.. so guai hor! =P

left there about 11.30. then me, hk, dar and xl went first. after awhile the rest came. then i play the lame game with bro. hahas. board the last bus. then alight the bus. then all say run to take the last train.. but somehow the train going to city hall left. so we were planning to take cab.. then others went down, never come up.. in the end, we realise there is a last train to kranji. then we run to board the train lo. so lame la. alighted at raffles and took train home.

first time reached home so freaking late. my god! >< lols.

pictures~~~

me, valerie, sanjana, waany and yeeboon. lols.

my group members. me, sanjana, waany, yeeboon, george and wei neng. (clockwise direction)

valerie and me

me, valerie, waany and yeeboon

me and waany.

me and amilia

amilia and me

the sheep family! lols. cause she is bah bah and i'm meh meh. =P

sh and me.

me and sh~~

me and my beloved EVE!!!

me and daddy alex.

me and hk

me, hk and crystal~

me, hk and crystal

me and toots~~

dar and me~

me and hk~

me, toots and eve.

me, hk and eve.

me, seng yong and eve.

me and dar!! hahas.

me, daddy and hk.

me, daddy and hk

me and bro!!

still brother and me.

still us! hahas.

was trying to take my reflection. somehow took daddy and seng yong. hahas. =x

i miss all of them. =) so glad that we manage to catch up with each other. still as close as before. =) wheee~~~

done blogging.

-i'm tired.-

going back.

2007-05-17T20:57:00.001+08:00

i had the urge to cry. and i did.
for no reason.
still feeling horrible.
the pain is back.
once again.

i'm going back into the shell.
isolating myself again.

damit!
my life is getting bad to worse!

i really. really. really wanna go back home. now!

-feeling weak-

down.

2007-05-16T22:50:00.001+08:00

all of a sudden, i feel so depressed.
it feels as if the entire world came crumbling down on me.
my surroundings is just so dark.
no one out there.
no one to reach out to.
and all i can do is just to hide in one corner.
keeping everything to myself.
all i have to keep me company is hatred, loneliness and emptiness.
i can no longer understand myself.

PLEASE! please hold on to me tightly. You are my power. You are the one who will never forsake me. nor leave me alone. You are the one whom can shower me with love.

Daddy. bring me back home. wanna go home!

wed.

2007-05-16T18:49:00.001+08:00

woke up at 9. prepare for school. and left house to meet sh. had cup noodle in school, with her, before going off for lessons with vale.

commsk! i hate that subject. and let it seems like the most important subject. cause it's english! >< ok ok. nothing to talk about. cause it's like so damn boring!

went for lunch at mensa2. again! lols. this time, i tried the fish and chips. gosh. having such a big appetite. >< BAHS! crap alot with my friends. like vale and yeeboon. sanajana kept laughing. lols.

after that, went for accounting. my tutor so funny. lols. anyway, all of us rush through our class tutorial and went home. as for me, i can't go home, so i wait for crystal lo. and that girl made me wait for her outside AS! lols. oh ya! saw one of the campus superstar. amazingly, no one went crazy. =x

went to collect my ezlink card with crystal.. on the way saw an irritating guy. -argh- anyway, until now still got gentleman exist! lols. one guy helped me open door. not bad. =x

came home. wheee~~ wow. last night, my junior msg me. i'm surprised. and yes. i miss them so much. school, teachers and friends.

friday, STEAMBOAT! so nan de for me to organise an outing la. see! those people ought to feel honoured. =x hahas. kidding. =P though short of min min, which will be less fun. bowling!! this friday!! LOL! and i'll make everyone take picture with me!!! =x sorry. zi-lian-ing mood everyday!

ok ok. done blogging. peeps. rmb:17 days!

-i think i'm turning into one. how?!?!-

rainy~

2007-05-15T19:05:00.000+08:00

i hate it when it's raining and i have to go school like super early. >< can't get to sleep longer. -sians- crystal pon maths lecture just to go school with me! -touched- lols. anyway, on our way, met BOMBA!! lols. talk to her. then me and hk keep disturbing her. lols. she is so nice to bully. =P

had econs lecture. the teacher seemed quite pissed. oh well. i could understand some part of the lecture. which is not bad to me! lols. afterall, econs is kinda a tough sub for me. lols. yes! ENGLISH problem. just hate languages la. stupid.

after that, went for APEL. on the way, benedict and sheldon keep asking me to try their class brownie sample. i wasn't in the mood from brownie, so i didn't try. lols. APEL, as usual, was so crap. lols. i think cause my teacher is really very funny. lols. hey hey!! i'm a colourful guppy!! hahas. i'm colourful!! hahas. =x after APEL, i saw BOMBA again. so i keep calling for her. then she say i noisy. =( lols. so nice to ka jiao her. =P

anyway, went to mensa2 for lunch. met so many people. saw xiangrong, alex, tiong han, yao li, chia keng and one MI friend. did a little group discussion for CSA, then went to library with vale. she stayed for awhile, then left. so i sat there alone and study. HEY! i'm good girl k? actually the library is a nice place to study. =)

then about 3, met crystal and xl. on the way, saw dar!! then we were about to leave, then i saw cai cai and leelin. and i gave them a shocked. talked to them for awhile, then i left.

walked to tm. then meet hk. so me, crystal and hk go shenton way to accompany crystal hand in some form. then xl go bugis cut hair.

whee~~ aunt is back in singapore!! i'll have my new bag soon!! lols. love love~~ hahas.

ok ok. pictures for the day!

amelia, yee boon, waany, valerie and me. taken during lecture. by me. my skills good right? =P

sanjana and me. ^^

vale and vale. =x

me and dar!!!

me, crystal and hk! wheee~~

with that, i end my entry.

-wow. got people miss me!! hor? angel, hor? eve too!! =x -

fun~

2007-05-14T19:18:00.001+08:00

reached school like super duper early. cause i brought hk to get wireless for her laptop. so anyway, went to the canteen to get my gummy. and wow!!! i saw him!!!! ^^ so damn high! =x he looks super cute and hot. lols. =x crap. met xl too. then went for lecture.

accounting lecture ended early. the lecture was only like for 45 minutes la. then most of my classmates when to TM. but sanjana, yee boon, waany and me went to library. acted guai. i did a bit of my tutorial. then i started slacking. about 1.15, went cheers to get my lunch. sandwich!! lols. then went for tutorial.

commsk tutorial was boring. but the photo taking was fun. i was practically taking pictures throughout the tutorial. and i think my tutor was quite pissed. lols. so today, i can entertain you guys with many pics! hahas. wheee~~ i love my class~ =) cause i've found many people to cam whore with!! ^^ and many people to crap with. hahas.

tml got to stay back for project. should i wait for crystal? lols. see bahs.. time for pictures~~

wanny, yee boon and me. =)

me and valerie.

valerie, waany, yee boon and me.

4 of us again. tried to make sure everyone is in the pic. lols. funny pic though. =x

this is yee boon in hui ying's shades.

waany in shades.

wei neng in shades. my class rep! lols.

sanjana in shades

george in shades

and me!!! haha. all these are my commsk group members. ^^

done blogging.

-tell me what is ahead? -sigh- =( -

mummy's day~

2007-05-13T21:50:00.001+08:00

mum came into the room asking what's for lunch. cause she wanted to go taka to buy kfc for lunch and buy some dishes back for dinner. but we already booked table for dinner. so we tricked her by saying that we want to go ecp. and mum agreed.

my afternoon was quite fruitful. did some research for my commsk. and manage to complete my accounting tutorial. lols. of course, i spent some time playing computer games.

come 5, my sis and me got prepared. mum still doesn't know where we are bring her. anyway, went to pick up my maid near my aunt's house. then went to taka. only then, mum know we are going taka. but she didn't know we are going to eat buffet.

when, we reached the restaurant, mum was touched. lols. she can't help smiling. =)hahas. Gengiskan actually renamed to Pariss. and i think the food wasn't as nice as before. ok. it just doesn't appeal to me. other than the sashimi, cold noodle, satay, blackcurrent cake and another cake. the rest are.... erms. lols. the sashimi is WOOTS! hahas. love it!

counting down. 2o days to my birthday! and 22 days to mid sem test. =S i'm gonna hate my birthday soon. >< at least, for these 3 years. lols. hahas. =) still waiting to go up the ferris wheel. ^^

happy mummy's day, mum! always loving you. =)

done blogging.

-give me a little more time to show You that my love for You is true and real.-

saturday~

2007-05-12T21:09:00.000+08:00

woke up like 12. i missed my cca orientation. so i'm seriously praying that PACEsetters would accept me. -sigh-

spent my day slacking. mum was so happy to see me home. -.-" didn't go out to teach sheldon either. i guess it's better for me to stay home and do many many catching up.

couldn't concentrate though. many things just came to my mind. -sigh- AGAIN!

tml is mum's day! me and sis is treating our family to this restaurant that mum has always wanted to try. =) this expenses is 100% earned by me during popular fair k? none from mum. lols.

ok. shan't blog much.

-i'm living in this world that seems like an illusion. everything seems to be there. but in actual fact, that's only what i think i saw.-

friday!

2007-05-11T21:37:00.000+08:00

met sheldon, xl, hk, dum first. then went bedok meet sh. we wait for the shuttle bus. but it turns out that there is no shuttle bus there. then went to flag cab. but not cab.. then walk to take bus 69. manage to board the bus. but we were quite late. =x

went for CSA lessons. know nuts about it. just plain filling in the blanks and chit chatting. keep ka jiao-ing wei neng and dennis. then took their phone to take pictures. lols. =x suddenly, pop quiz. open book though. after that, lecture ended.

went to canteen to slack for half and hour or so. then went for POM tutorial. on the way, met yu ren. and mins. miss them!!! =( oh ya. i love my tutor!! he rocks. cause he's so funny. lols. he is a very patient man. unlike MC. eeew~ lols. anyway, pom tutorial ended quite early too.

so went to AS for lunch. on the way, i saw gerrie. then talked to her. after that, went AS school to meet my classmates. then went for lecture. half an hour after the lecture start, i was falling asleep. then my phone vibrated. >< scare me. lecture last for 3.5 hours. my mind is so saturated. ><

after that, went home with xl. cause hk ps us. lols. someone wanted to save money, so walked to TM lo. went to look for his laptop case. couldn't find, so we went home lo.

i'm like so tired. >< i realised i haven't been doing my revision. and everytime, i attend lecture, not knowing my previous lecture work. sians. ><

ok ok. pictures time~

me and valerie taking during APEL

amelia and me. taken before CSA.

beautiful waany and me. i made her take it. lols.

me and yee boon. and amelia trying to come into the pic. lols. so funny.

me and mei xin.

me and sanajana during CSA lecture

me and valerie during CSA lecture

me and amelia on our way to POM lecture

waany and me while waiting for the others

me and valerie~~

my zi lian pictures are up~!

done blogging.

-sis is back! miss her so much!-

thursday

2007-05-10T21:47:00.000+08:00

woke up like 7 plus. too sleepy. >< after that, meet hk, sheldon and crystal and xl. then went to school. manage to board the bus and got seats! ^^ lols. went to cheers to slack before going for CSA.

CSA lesson wasn't that bad. lol. learnt how to make our own website. lols. then went for econs lesson. the teacher was quite pissed again. -as usual- lols. was quite bored during econs. sotook wei neng's hp and zi lian. lols. then took dennis phone to zi lian too. hahas. -oopsy- hahas. got some surprised test! hahas. i didn't really really know how to do the last few. think cause suddenly my mind blank. damn shitty. ><

met xl and hk. went to TM for lunch. after that, went walking a while. and went home. rushed my POM tutorial. guess what? i finally know why my pom teacher so familiar. cause he was the one i consulted when i was considering BSG! hahas. and he started talking about international buffet. and all of us were so hungry. >< lols.

went to granny's house for dinner. they are leaving for thailand tml. suddenly, have the urge to go for holiday. hahas. oh well. got to stay in singapore and study for upcoming mid sem test. lol. ><

tml is finally friday!! argh. but i haven't decide whether to go for TP BP cca orientation. >< worse! tml is going to be a long day. =(

that's the end of blogging. shall post the pictures up soon.

done blogging.

-BAH!-

unlucky.

2007-05-09T18:29:00.001+08:00

woke up at 9 plus. was able to laze abit longer cause sis woke up and used the toilet. she's going camp! that means 3 days without her!! OMG! lols. anyway, tried doing my tution grant in the morning. but my lappy was running on bat. and my bat went flat. so i decided to do when i come home.

got ready for school. got chased out by my maid at 10.20. i thought it was quite early, so decided to walk slowly to the mrt station. halfway, i realised i forgotten to bring my accounting textbook. so asked my maid to bring down. then, i was about to leave, i forget my accounting booklet. so went up. then i walked to the mrt station. today, not queue for the taxi. so i got my taxi super fast. was on my way to school, when i realised i forgotten to bring my damn commsk book! -sians- so i msg my beloved lady, valerie. and yaps. met her before lesson, and got my things photocopied.

went for commsk lesson. it's like so damn boring. >< oh ya! we celebrated wanny's and xue ting's birthday. =) happy birthday ladies~! lols. anyway, MC wasn't happy. she said our class was getting out of hand. oh well. lols. guess what. the test on 21st is like GP la. writing some argumentative essays and stuff. EEEW~~~ ><

went to engine school for lunch. the western food there is so cheap la. and the queue is quite long. decided not to skip lunch, i only bought a pack of fries and 4 pieces of nuggets. lols. then we went back to bus. we took a longer way. hoping to reach like design school or maybe back to bus. it turns out we are still in engine school. -.-" lols.

went for accounting tutorial. i think accounting is fun~! so damn fun. hahas. =) me and vale disturb dennis. lols. we used his phone and took a picture of ourselves. and tried to see if he took a pic of his gf. but it turns out he has no gf. lol. ya. he is those shy kind. hahas. omg! i LOVE his handwriting. LOVE IT! hahas. damn nice. it's like so much nicer and neater than mine. =( -zi bei- lols.

after that, went to hand in my application form. and met sh. waited for crystal. and my stupid sl suan me by saying that i can teach econs, cause my econs also cannot make it. -.-" hahas. oh well. exams are coming soon~! omg! and i'll be spending my birthday studying. SO SAD!!! ='( met crystal and glenn, then went home. on the way, met dum at tampines mrt station.

i told them 2 short jokes and one long joke. lols. damn cold. but quite funny. hahas. =x CSA TML!! damn. >< hais. time to chiong my tutorials.

done blogging.

-you know. this life doesn't just belong to me. it's YOURS too. =)-

sians.

2007-05-08T16:46:00.000+08:00

it's like the 39th entry. wow. so fast. lols.

i was dreading to wake up at 7 today. but my "cute" maid told me it was 7.30. so i quickly went to the bathroom. and only the realised it was 7.09. sians! oh well. i got prepared for school. and met hk and xl. we missed bus 69, and decided to take taxi before we were late like yesterday. and today, we are early! lols.

i met my classmates and went for econs lec. the lecturer taught very fast. so some of us had a hard time catching up. i only know what is going on. the shift and the movement thingy. lols. after that, we went for APEL1. our CP rocks la! he is like so damn funny. hahas. yaps. unlike all the other boring tutors i had. ><

after that, my group stayed back to do project discussion. manage to complete what we were supposed to do. after that, xue ting and sanjana left. then valerie and amelia left. so me and mei xin stayed back awhile. i was planning to wait for xl and hk. but i was feeling so damn tired, i left first. on the way, saw my xl. mei xin didn't even recognise him la. lols. ya. he is like so damn pale la. then i msg him, sick le still don't want see doctor. then his reply was, wait for it to get worse then see. -.-" DOTS! lols.

guess what? i bought a new shorts! 8 bucks! worth it! hahas. =P it's like so damn nice la. hahas. =) you know something? skipping few days of lunch and eating SUPER little for dinner do good to my tummy. ^^ ya.. my tummy grew smaller. hahas. which means i lose weight! hahas. and mum and maid keep nagging again. lols. i just need it to grow a little smaller!! hahas. =x

took pics again. i'll try to post up soon. =) oh ya. i sign up BSGIG. erms. i don't think of going in. but i thought of focussing on TP BP and SA! lols. =) wish me luck. i want to get into SA though. =)

done blogging.

-could i start my life afresh?-

gosh.

2007-05-07T20:58:00.000+08:00

i've got to say that going to school these days are much more fun than before. probably cause i've got to know more of my classmates. =)

went to school this morning. was slightly late for lecture. anyway, there was a celebration going on. and i told xl that bus quite qian bian. cause they were celebrating our school getting champion for 3 consecutive years. -.-" dots! anyway, i didn't really buy anything. cause i was rushing for lecture. lols. i'm starting to fall in love with accounting. =) i think it's quite fun.

after that, went for lunch break. i had grass jelly drink. and eeew~! it's not sweet la! >< then vale company me to withdraw money. then went to the bookshop together to get POM textbook. then, went to collect her ezlink card and went for class.

we waited for the teacher outside our class. cause we were early by half an hour. i did some zi lian-ing as usual. this time, i took with more friends! wheee~~ xue ting was being lame. she put a price tag on the floor, with the sticky part face upwards. and she was waiting for someone to step on it. so funny!! hahas.

went for commsk lesson. it was so boring! we are going to have our test on 21st may!!! MY GOD!! >< hais. i'm so not used to the system. i don't even know how to prepare for this test. cause i can't stant commsk? lols. suddenly receive msg from hk asking me to wait for xl. so, i waited for him after school at tm. lols. and wow! someone wanted to wait for me for school to end so that he can ka jiao me. -.-" how evil right? -TSK-

went to TM to buy some files while waiting for xl. in the end, i was feeling so hungry, i went to buy pringles home. and ate 3 nuggets and 2 wan tans. lols. then xl came. and we went home. lols. that guy still want to pierce ear. hahas. so i told him that he might have infection. hahas.

here i am back home. so lazy to do anything. i fill up my form for SA. and sy is handing up his form tml!!! wow!! lol. that guy damn steady! woots! hahas. just checked my e-mail. and TP BP e-mail me!!! gosh!! i don't know if i should go. should i? =x i feel like. then again, i'm afraid that i may not cope. you know, i'm a very lazy girl.. hais. >< and the thingy is like this saturday!! my god. i've got to get up early again. ><

ok. entertainment time. pictures that were taken some time ago. and pictures taken today. =) enjoy!

that's me and mei xin! taken during POM tutorial when our teacher was out printing things

that's vale^2! hahas.

my dearest min and me! where's eve?! =x

random. i was suppose to take one zi lian pic. when sh took for me and so qiao, all 3 of us were looking out. and both, crystal and mins, didn't know i took this. =P

yee boon, mei xin and me! taken while waiting for CHER! =x

me and vale. cause she was "jealous" that i took with mei xin and yee boon. LOL!

me and beautiful sanjana~

me and vale again. cause i commented that my pic with sanjana was nice. LOL.

me~! zi lian-ing after my niece birthday party. =)

my beautiful name written by Dennis. his hand writing so nice!!!

done blogging.

-i hate myself. and i love myself too. =)-

eMo-

2007-05-06T20:53:00.000+08:00

many things are going through my mind. and damn it! the hatred within me is getting greater and greater. yet Your love for me has never change a single bit. i've let You down. =(

done blogging.

-please. don't hurt this fragile heart anymore.-

boring~!

2007-05-04T20:50:00.000+08:00

woke up like 9 plus. i did my things slowly. until it was about 10.30, and i took cab to school. this man, stood next to me. and started flagging for cab. i thought he cut my queue. but in the end, he was actually flagging a cab for me. WOW! anyway, i was hoping that the driver go by a longer way, but it turns out that he went by the shorter way. -.-" so i reached school like in less than 10 minutes time. and it cost 5.30!! i saved 70 cents! hahs.

i was kinda lost. cause i didn't know how to go to the concourse. all thanks to the stupid driver who alighted me at the end. -.-" oh well. i manage to find my way. and ya. i got to say. tp cleaners all friendly and kind people. -sigh- i miss mjr's cleaners too. the uncles and aunties so friendly and cute! hahas. i met sanjana and went for POM tutorial.

POM tutor is like so funny. and he said he caught a penguin 14 years ago!! believe it?! everyone doubts it. like DUH~! anyway, we have a project to do. so ya.. hahas. after that, we had lunch break. vale left to find her friend, so guan ming join us. then we went walking around. hahas. oh oh! i bought a sweet. ya. couldn't resist sweet temptations. lols. amelia helped me calculate how much i saved. lols. 20 cents. means today i saved a total of 90 cents!! hahas.

went for POM lecture. felt like cursing the lecturer. didn't even understand what he was saying. and i wasn't in the mood to jot down any notes. SIAN!!! after that, went to meet mins, hk and xl. after much persuasion by mins, i went to tm with them. of course, we waited for crystal and sh.

crapping from school to tm. and i saw cai cai mum. and i shout her name so loud that everyone was staring at me. -oopsy- =x ya! i miss her alot!! you know, i only saw her twice so far. =( ok ok. i keep seeing leelin though. hahas. erms. went to mac and eat with xl and sh. then went home early.

came home, sent bro an e-mail. i tried my best to type it in a formal form. but i couldn't. lols. anyway, he said don't have to type in a formal form. afterall, only he sees it. lols.

manage to ask my mum not to go for the parent seminar tml. cause i think it's very boring. lols. =x and i wanna stay home. well. at least let me try acting like a good girl. hahas. show mum that i'm studying instead of playing my addictive computer game. lol.

oh well... so tired.. >< but i'll still be praying that i get my job. I'M AM SO FREAKING BROKE!! lols. and ya. i should feel honoured cause so many people wanna work with me!! =P

done blogging.

-the past is still haunting me! ~~cufk~~-

happy~~

2007-05-03T20:04:00.001+08:00

gee. i think my life isn't that bad afterall. =)

2 news last night. ^^

first, one of the SA person called me. and yaps.. i think i'll be joining SA. and of course TP BP!!! hahas. hopefully it won't take so much of my time. ><

secondly, bro, msg me on msn last night. he asked if my school's schedule is tight. of course, i find this week rather slack, so i replied no. then he asked if i'm interested to go back and work. LIKE DUH~! hahas. i couldn't give him the reply so fast cause i still got to get my mum's consent. anyway, it's because they are short of manpower. so being a "kind" sister, i asked my friends. wheee~~ and yaps. mum gave me the green light to go ahead and work. ^^ and yaps. the timing is more or less flexible. and it's 5/hr!!! hahas. plus the boss, bro, is good~! hahs.

hahas. i love the feeling of being able to work and earn my own money. cause it makes me feel as if i'm capable of earning my own money and that i've grown up. of course, i don't have to feel bad each time i stretch out my hands and ask mum for money to get some stuff. or hearing mum telling us how hard dad is working just to earn money for this family, and here we are spending money like water. hahas. of course, earning money is tough. and this teach me a lesson not to spend money on unnecessary things. hahas. ok ok. though i'm still spending. hahas.

woke up like 7 today. and got prepared for school. then met hk, xl and crystal for school. met vale on the way. then find our class together. csa is like such a slacking lesson. probably because the teacher had to run between two classes. lols. anyway, me, sanjana and vale were going on msn. and mum thought i didn't go school. dots!

after that went to econs class. and the econs teacher speaks so softly and so coldly. econs isn't bad. only that everyone is so quiet. it's so unlike commsk! hahas. =x i guess it's because the teacher is so fierce. lols.

after that went home. then went with sis to get her bakery stuff. hahas. both of us went home penniless. which is damn pathetic. lols.

finally, tml is friday!!! wheee~~ and there comes sat. holiday!! hahas.

ok ok. i love school!!!

done blogging.

-wheee~~ rich again!-

lucky~

2007-05-02T20:07:00.000+08:00

woke up at 9 sharp. but i was so lazy to go school. cause i'll be going alone!! =( oh well. i laze till about 9.15 and got up to prepare for school. i drag my feet. and waited for time to pass till about 10.20 i left my house.

i took cab again. lols. today, the queue is long, cause of the rain! -argh- it was like 10.30. and i thought i was going to be late. i wanted to call for taxi. in the end, this taxi came, and he only want to go bedok. so i went, cause no one was going bedok. wheee~~ i was feeling so lucky. =x i wanted to listen to my mp3. but i didn't bring my earpiece. -.-"

reached school, and there goes my 6 bucks. -sigh- met 2 of my classmates and went to class together. lols. commsk lesson again!! >< i so hate it. lols. anyway, had group work. the guys in our group were like so crazy. they keep laughing and laughing. lols.

after that, went to IT school to eat with vale and the rest. the pizza wasn't very nice though. lols. after that, we went for lesosns. accounting teacher wasn't that bad. at least, he is like so much better than commsk teacher. =x hahas. finally found a zi lian partner!!! VALERIE!! hahas. yaps. took many zi lian pick today. shall post up soon. hahas.

as soon as lesson end, i went to meet crystal. that girl punish be for meeting her at the bookshop. then i punish her to talk to me until i meet her. and when we met, we were still talking on the phone. so funny. hahas. =x oh well. went back to business school to see if i got econs text. and in the end it's not the correct book. so didn't buy. went to get crystal yan yan. -.-"

we were deciding whether to take taxi or bus. in the end, we took cab. lols. we were talking about friday. i told her i went home with mins, hk and xl. and she keep wondering who she went home with. she can't rmb. lols. oh well. reached kembangan and went to cheers.

wheee~~ i'm starting to love school. like FINALLY~ hahas. it's probably because i'm starting to mix around with people like vale, amelia, xue ting, mei xin and sanjana. so ya.. i can finally start laming again. lols. you know how much i miss laming. and you know how much i hate zi bi-ing? lols.

wow.. recently sh and crystal tell me they miss going out with me. whee~~ hahas. ya. been so lazy to go out. feel like just slacking at home. lols. and and!! i miss bowling!! hahas. thought a hate breaking my nails. ><

i'm so happy!!! yaps. after so long, i finally saw him again. hahas. =) see~ no wonder i'm feeling lucky today. hahas.

done blogging.

-trying to forget it all.-

sians.

2007-05-01T21:08:00.000+08:00

woke up at 10. and ya. as expected, i switched on my comp and played my game. hahas. about 12.30, i left the house with my parents to my niece birthday party. sis didn't go cause of her exam. hahas.

in the car, i did the normal thing. started zi lian-ing. hahas. then i stared out of the window. suddenly, that pain came back to me. -sigh- i'm used to single life. i am. but i can't say that my wound has recovered. hmms. oh well. i tried to get rid of the thought. and i did. =) thank You.

the party was fun to everyone but me. cause i don't understand a single thing that the adults were saying. hahas. i don't understand dialect. and i had to msg my sl. DEAD BORED! hahas. my niece is like super cute today. =) and my nephew keep crying today. hahas. so funny.

left there the earliest. when i got home, i went straight to bed. hahas. i'm like so tired. >< -yawn-

there's school tml. another 4 hours of school. hahas. i'm SO NOT looking forward to commsk! and there's commsk tml! damn! if only tml was 1st may, then today i'll have my favourite ECONS lecture!! WHEEE~~ hahas. oh well. i promised i'll do my best in tp. so i shan't complain much. hais. i'll love what i hate. I LOVE COMMSK!!! >< who am i kidding?

how? no one going with me to support my er zi. =(

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

think this lyrics kinda suit my life. HAs~!

i'm gonna make sure everyone,my parents and friends, will accept You. =) and will allow You to be in my life. even if they don't, i must let You know, You are already playing a big part in this life of mine. wheee~~ <3 <3

done blogging.

-i'm lame~ i'm bored~ i'm everything. =)-

sians.

2007-04-30T18:25:00.001+08:00

woke up at 8.40, so that i'll have time to play my comp game before going to school. and ya.. i'm seriously addicted to it. so pardon me if i sound super dao on msn. hahas. =x

met xl and hk to go school. then my sl msg me. cause he's sad that his comp was down. hahas. i suan him first before consoling him. hahas. oopsy. hahas. ok ok. met one of my classmate to go for lecture. and at the bus stop, i saw one whole group of girls from my class. it's only then did i realised that my class's girls are divided into 2. -.-" why can't girls just be like guys, more easy going? hais.

accounting lecture wasn't that bad. i was paying full attention for the first hour. and i was busy replying sms for the next hour. hahas. i was so damn bored. lols. i disturb sh and my sl. hahas.

after that, a few of us went to design school to eat. i ka jiao-ed sh's friend. then i saw dum queueing for food. anyway, design school's western food is nice. hahas. we were walking and stuff. and our class rep treat 3 of us! wow. hahas. so cool right? hahas. after that, went to bookshop to buy csa books. my econs book out of stock! argh. oh well. then class rep helped the both valeries to carry the csa book. wheee~~ way to go wei neng! hahas. =P

so we went for commsk tutorial. it was like so crap la. asking us to pick out descriptive words. -.-" crap! anyway, we did group work. and vale took a photo of me. hahas. and i took a photo of some of my group members. didnt take zhen na though. =x hahas.

went home. lols. my sl saw me but i didn't see him. oops. and he scold me blur! >< bad man. hahs. serve him right. say me blur that's why comp was down. and wah. he's like so good can. he wanted to wait for me to end lesson. wahs!!! hahas. can ask him be my bro soon. hahas. =x suddenly, i asked sh a very stupid question. how do your know if you like someone? i know it's lame. and very stupid. but suddenly, i forgotten what it feels like to be in love. hahas. oh well. i guess i don't need that feeling for a long time. hahas.

ok ok. picture time!!!

hui kia, me and mins. =)

me acting cute. taken by vale. lols.

valerie and amelia(they didn't know at first. but after i took, then they know. =X)

mei xin and xue ting(they didn't know. =P)

my back view. taken by sh during accounting lecture.

me and sis. trying to post a super lame pic.

me pointing at sis. hahas.

ok ok. i realised so many people like to take a picture of me today. hahas. =x oh well. =) hope you all enjoy my picture time. wheee~~

done blogging.

-it no longer matters to me if i'm a les or not. HAs!-

sunday

2007-04-29T18:34:00.001+08:00

it's a sunday again. means there's school tml. hahas.

many things went through my mind. sigh..

anyone interested to go tjc's choir concert with me? i wanna go there to support my er zi. lols.

oh well. that's all. no mood to blog.

-wheee~~-

=)

2007-04-28T23:10:00.001+08:00

today is a rather boring day. like a day for me to rest. hahas.

a week in poly, really set me thinking. like where i should go next? what should i do to achieve my goals? and seriously, i've met many ex schoolmates from my primary school. hahas. i didn't regret going mjr. =) hahas.

i saw my junior yesterday. =) she gave me a hug and asked me why i didn't go jc. haha. though i think that jc's system is much better than poly, but i think it won't suit me. hahas. anyway, i miss prefectorial board. i miss choir. =) hahas.

went to granny's house to pay her a visit. everyone asked how's school. my answer? ok lo. hahas. i think it's not bad. =) hahas. though i was hoping that my class will be more bonded. and yaps. i hope this monday's dinner will be on. hahas. =)

i'm still thinking about student ambassodor and tp bp. one thing i like about tp bp is to help me reconsider if i should work towards the goal of becoming a teacher. but i seriously want to be student ambassodor. hahas. call me prefect freak if you want. hahas. but i like to interact with people. just don't ask me to pin something on VIP. WON'T FORGET LAST YEAR SCHOOL ANNI!! hahas.

did alot of thinking. hope every choice i make will be right. and even if it's wrong, i hope i won't regret. hahas. =)

done blogging.

-i'm tired.-

woots~

2007-04-28T13:36:00.001+08:00

this entry is about yesterday. =)

yesterday
finally it's like the last day of the week. wheee~~ ya. i'm starting to look foward to weekends. hahas. cause it's like the only time i can like play and go shopping. hahas.

woke up at 7.15 and met dum and hk. amazingly it's dum who waited for us. and not me who waited for them. hahas. ok ok. then we went to bedok bus interchange to wait for xl and sh. then took bus to school lo. me, sh and dum were talking around the mushroom area. then he left to find his friend. sh met her classmate. and we went to the school together. after that i went for lecture with my class.

CSA lecture is like HOW BORING! >< i don't even understand a thing. i'm a complete computer idiot. so don't tell me things like hardware, software, ram, modem. eeee!! >< oh well. valerie went off in the midst of the lecture cause she wasn't feeling well.

after lecture, the group of us, 12 went to century for lunch. and took neoprint. damn crap la. about 9 of us squeeze just to take neoprints. hahas. and it's like so freaking long since i last took it. hahas. >< ok ok. went to TM to watch the guys play pool. then hui ying and yee boon went to pierce ears. hahas. took bus back to school and was 3 minutes late for the POM lecture. >< and we had no notes. hahas.

so, being good girls and boys, we took out pen and paper to jot down notes. hahas. the lecture wasn't that bad. and we were release like 50 minutes earlier. so all 19 of us went to buy notes together. hahas. and left the library together. hahas.

went to meet mins, xl and hk. and too bus back to tampines. didn't go TM with them, cause i had to go home. went home, slack awhile and went out with sis and maid to meet mum. had NEW YORK NEW YORK for dinner. and the beef is like so freaking tough. >< sians. till this day, i think i've found the best beef~~~ wheee~~ it's at the raffles town club. the beef i ate that night. it's like so juicy and tender. =) dEliCiOuS~~ haha. =x

before leaving, i went to make candy floss. ^^ i made a super big one la. hahas. then my maid and sis keep eating mine. =( oh well. went to marina square and went to bowl. damn shit lo. i was leading at first, went suddenly, i lost my luck. >< even my maid won me!! that's like quite sad. ><

went to take taxi back. we were queueing at some hotel nearby. then i started zi lian-ing. hahas. took a damn crappy pic with my sis. hahas. shall post up soon. lols. finally after waiting for half an hour, a taxi came. we rode pass the ferris wheel.. damn. i so want to sit~! anyone kind enough to bring me up there for my birthday? hahas. think no one. =(

ok ok. came home and started using the comp. i think having a laptop is kinda of a bad influence. cause i won't sleep early. hahas. ok ok. i was talking to my sl. telling him how zi bi i am now. and he don't believe. -.-" i also can't believe that i can zi bi for so many days. -argh- >< oh well. just got to get used to it. hahas.

was playing with sis last night. wheee~~ ^^ we played from like 1 to 2 a.m. and finally decided that it's late. so we went to bed. and we made so much noise that my maid woke up and smack us. hahas.

wow. things are back to normal now. stupid mood swing sucks. time to store more chocolates at home. >< GODIVA!!! i've yet to try it. hahas. =)

done blogging.

-i'm a step towards success. =)-

a day at home

2007-04-26T18:49:00.000+08:00

yesterday, i was in a mood to do tutorials. and i did. lols. i did econs tutorial. and was stuck at question 2. i asked 3 different people. and after 3 hours of explanation, i've finally been enlighted. hahas. my sl explain to me until i finally got the picture!! woots! hahas. i did econs until like 1 a.m.

woke up about 8 plus today and did my last question of econs. then slack from 11.30 till 2 plus. then went out to meet sh. wanted to go bras brasah to buy my textbook. but they didn't sell the one i wanted. no choice, i had to buy from tp.

so i took cab with sh from kembangan to tp. i tried taking some emo pic. but that girl keep making me laugh. -.-" so it turns out weird. hahas. ok ok. went to tp to buy my textbook. then went to look for crystal.

on the way, i met my senior, so i talked to her. been so long since i last saw her. erms.. 1 year plus? hahas. i asked her about cca and stuff. just nice, TP-BP was in front. so she asked her friend to explain to me. then came a student ambassodor. and i'm interested in both ccas. hais. so i sign up for both! hahas. student ambassodor is like once a month. while tp-bp is like every saturday. hahas. and hey! it helps me in my future career. hahas. =)

went to meet crystal. sh and glenn left first. then waited for dum. after meeting dum, we took cab to TM. bought mum stuff then went home. i saw yun zhen! hahas. i miss her. =)

ok ok. here i am back home. feel like doing tutorial. tonight should be accounting. hahas. tml got school! damn. =(

hmms. i feel a lot better today. =) wheee~~ mood swing today isnt as bad as other days. hahas. and yaps. i feel so much better after talking to You. =) i'll make it a habit to do so everyday!!! ^^

done blogging.

-i'm a good girl!! HAs!! =P-

hug please.

2007-04-25T23:07:00.000+08:00

if i still see anyone along orchard underground now, asking for free hugs, i'll go.

i need a hug.

i need someone to tell me things will be fine.

and thank You. cause You had never neglect me. but please. take this craziness away. fill those loneliness and emptiness with love again.

i need it that much. this much.

argh

2007-04-25T20:38:00.000+08:00

got force to get up by mum cause the air con people are coming. hais. so i woke up. and waited for 9.30. got prepared for school. i was so lazy to take bus today, so i hired a cab. i was expecting to reach school like half an hour later. in the end i reached there like in 10 minutes. -.-"

i went to explore and looking for my classroom. in the end, i look and look. still can't find. plus i thought it's lab. -.-" so i concluded i was lost. and i went to meet my classmate at the mushroom. then we went to the class together. only then did i realised that my class is not lab, but container class. -.-" crap!

waited for my tutor to come. and she's late la. -argh- so we were crapping outside class. then when she came, she tried to open the door, tried like 5 times, and finally can open. hahas. ok ok. the lesson is like english lesson. so i find it boring. we did group work. valerie is in my group~! haha. she quite crappy. hahas. so she went up to present after all of us voted for her. and at the end of the presentation, she started debating with the teacher cause our teacher didn't agee with our answer. hahas. funny.

i took bus 8 with sanjana. then went to tm alone. bought like super many food stuff back home. had lunch at the swimming pool with my sis. then went to the reading room. i wanted to do accounting tutorial. but the lecturer is damn smart. in order to make us buy the textbook, she didn't type the questions on the tutorial. now i got to buy the damn textbook! argh! oh well. i ended up doing econs tutorial. hahas. i feel so guai. cause dominic sl didn't do tutorials. hahas. *feel like an angel* =)

had so much crap to talk with my sis. i really love the funny side of her. rather than the fierce and unapproachable sister. oh well. =) no matter what, i'll still love her. cause she is my one and only sister and that no one else will be there for me when my parents are no longer around. *CHOY* hahas.

gosh. my mood swing is getting bad to worse. >< damn. i feel so terrible. i feel like screaming. i feel like crying. and i feel like just ending this damn life of mine! yaps. all these emotions just take place at the same time. that i feel like tearing myself into pieces.

last night, i was telling my mum that i'm gonna prove many people wrong. and she told me that i shouldn't have too much pride and blah blah. probably you can look at that in her point of view. but yet to me, i feel that proving others wrong is a sort of motivation for me. for me to work like SUPER DUPER hard towards my goals and prove others wrong. instead of just dreaming that some day i'll prove others wrong. who says dream don't come true? maybe i used to think that. but now, i won't. =) i'm sure one day, i'll reach my goals. and by then, i'll do You proud. and i'll do my parents proud too. =) thank You for being there for me.

done blogging.

-i'm just a fugly little fbitch. =)-

in a mess

2007-04-24T19:18:00.000+08:00

woke up like 7.30. then got myself prepared by 8 and left the house early. met hk at kembangan then met xl at bedok bus interchange. the queue for bus 69 is like SO long! it's so much longer than the queue of donut factory.. oh well, in the end, 3 of us went to take taxi to school.

went for lecture. and it's like so damn boring. >< the first lesson of econs is what i learnt in MI. but still, i forgotten some. =x xl's class is damn crappy. and one of his classmate is my primary schoolmate! wow! the world is so freaking small!!! ok ok. i meant singapore.

after lecture, went to meet crystal in AS canteen, while xl and hk went to collect notes. then they join us. guess who i saw today?? SASA!!! =) i miss her. ok ok. went to buy nacho. and the cheese is like so watery. =S omg! so i ended up eating just the nachos. talk for awhile, then went to send crystal to student lounge to her classmates.

after that we tried to find our way from SAA to the bus stop. on the way, i saw my beloved cai cai mummy!!! =) i miss her too. then went to take bus to tampines then took to orchard. at city hall, hk's classmate called her. told her that they got to attend APEL. but in the end, also no need. so yaps. we carried on with our plan. went to meet yk at orchard. wow. that guy's dressing sense improved! hahas.

went to lucky plaza to eat indonesian food. it's not bad. and their bundong with soda taste like SASI. hahas. =x not bad. and it's cheap! =) ok ok. went to far east to walk. i'm so in a shopping mood la. but decided not to buy anything. then we went separate ways.

me and hk went back to TM. we had large fries. and that lady finished like 5 packets of chilli!!! and i only finished one! 0.o see the diff?! hahas. ok ok. met crystal and sh. then went home.

gosh. i think my life sucks now. BIG TIME! ok. other than my stupid serious mood swing. hais.

i'm not used to poly life yet. i find it hard to mingle with friends. and i find it hard to be who i am with them. thus, i turn to my ex classmates. and then again, they already have their own friends. and i'll feel like so awkward. of course, i'm not expected to be clinging on to them the entire sem or WORSE! the entire year. but it seems like it. hais. stop telling me that, "you're friendly, sure can make friends." or "you're not like your sister. so you can make more friends.". ok. i don't see any logic. so it's not true! hais.

was talking to hk in the mrt today. about our lower sec life. gee. i realised that due to certain things, i've chose to forgo many friendships. and seriously, i'm regretting it now. i miss those days whereby we gossip through letters. and busy replying letters instead of listening to lessons. i remembered that i was sitting by the window, and i'll always look out. i'll be so FREAKING happy when i see someone. but yaps. all so long ago. hahs.

then again, how can that be compared to poly. everyone in poly are so different. lesser people will want to lame with you cause they'll think you're either childish or you are insane.

sad to say, when love doesn't exist anymore, loneliness, emptiness and hatred will start filling up the gaps. and that's what happening in my life. i hate it when i'm always undergoing a change. cause the more i change, the more i no longer know who i am. and i'll no longer know what life has become. and i'll start regretting when many things happen. damn it!

i know this period of time, life is gonna be tough. and i know that i'll probably not want to turn to any friends. but i know You're gonna be here with me. every minute, and every second You will be listening to whatever i'm going to say and grumble. and i know You are going to bring back on track and constantly shower me with those love and care. i love You. =) and it feels so good and great to know You.

done blogging.

-get off my nerves before i flare up!-

first day at school.

2007-04-23T21:17:00.000+08:00

woke up at 7.58. it's pretty weird though. cause when school starts, i'll always wake up at 6.30. but yet, poly is different. i'm not adapted to it yet. lols. so i went back to bed and woke up at 8.45. used the comp and got prepared by 10. and left the house at 10.

met hk and xl. and went to school. TP during school days and during holidays is different. lols. anyway, waited outside lecture room for accounting lecture to start. sat with sh, xl, hk and her friend. lecture was hell bored. so i had no choice but to turn to my second best friend, handphone! hahas. i started msg-ing dominic sl. cause he's like the best sl to ka jiao. hahas. got him to help me find a second hand accounting textbook. anyway, one part of accounting today is somehow like SS. got to do explanation in order to get the mark. so weird. hahas.

i had an hour break. met up with dar and crystal. had lunch in business school canteen. then yun qi came to join us. saw hui ru! omg! she changed alot! first time see her dressed so girl. hahas. and first time hear her talk about looking at guys. hahas. oh well. my hour break ended quite fast. yun qi, crystal and dar went to watch 200 pounds blah blah.

i went to level 4. went looking for my classroom. it's pretty weird la. anyway, found some of my classmates sitting outside the class. so we started talking. hey! it's pretty easy to get along with some of them. hahas. then some of us went to talk photo. hahas. there's a new girl in our class. actually not new la. just that she didn't go for orientation. hahas. anyway, went for commsk1. and i sat beside valerie. hey! i seriously think i'm destined to meet alot of valeries. hahas. and she's like the 3rd valerie i know? hahas.

CS1 was quite sians. we only went through the house rules, then self introduction. within an hour, we ended. and it was raining so heavily. i walked to the bus stop with george, xiao ying and zhen na. george offered to carry the unbrella to shelther us. but it didn't seems to work. me and xiao ying were all drenched. hahas. but it's cool. =)

i went to TM. went popular to get some stationery. then went walking around. sat in times. i was looking at cooking books. like -.-!! hahas. oh well. then went to meet crystal and guys. dum passed me PIYO PIYO!!! wheee~~ hahas.

then came home. i'm like so bored~

ok ok. show you one of my pic! hahas. bet you all miss me. hahas. =P

ok ok. people, i hope you can tolerate me for this period of time thanks!

done blogging.

-mood swing is bad!-

weirdo

2007-04-22T22:29:00.001+08:00

sh and tw bro said i sounded sad and less enthu today. erms. i don't think i'm sad. but yaps, i'm less enthu today. hahas.

anyway, i just wanna say that dum rocks! hahas. piyo piyo just doesn't seems to exist anymore. and many people just don't seem to know what piyo piyo is. but dum drew a piyo piyo for me!!!
so cute can? hahas. =) thanks dum~!

left house about 6. went raffles town club for dinner. during the car journey, i was busy zi lian-ing again. cause sis and maid didn't go. cause sis was busy studying for exam tomorrow and maid wasn't invited. so that left me. =( i tried talking super emo pictures. but i think i'm just not photogenic. hahas. too bad. =(

reached there. and waited for the dishes to be served. this time, we went for tepanyaki dinner. not at the chinese restaurant. lols. appetisers were cubes of salmon and a bowl of salad. salmon was great. but the salad wasn't to my liking. hahas. second dish was lobster soup. and gosh. i don't know how to eat the lobster. so i just drank the soup. lols. 3rd dish was salmon again. then crayfish. followed by dao gei. fried rice. and lastly, beef!! hahas. all the dishes are great. i could have polished all the dishes if only my appetite isn't small. hais. =( after that we had green tea ice cream. which sucks big time! eeew~ and we had cake! cause it's aunt's birthday!! hahas.

aunt bought us clothes. which is nice. =) just love it. hahas.

went home.

i'm so tired. and dreading to go school tml. i won't mind if i had the class i had in MI. but this class is different. =(

done blogging.

-it'll all be gone. it's a matter of time.-

changes.

2007-04-22T14:11:00.001+08:00

life is on the verge of undergoing a drastic change. and hopefully, my character won't change any futher. cause i think i've changed enough. lols.

it's time to noticed that i'm no longer a secondary student. and that i have no teachers to constantly reminding me to study hard to get good grades. cause i think poly is no longer like that. lols. it's probably time to noticed that i'm no longer a child who can throw her tantrum anyhow and get people rushing to me to satisfy my needs. cause i'm now a teenager, a young adult who have to think sensibly and be responsible for my everything. i guess it's also time to noticed that my parents are starting to give me the freedom i've longed for. thus they won't be nagging at me for why i'm not studying and stuff. therefore it's up to me to do what i need in order to reach my dreams and goals. and right now, at this point in time, everything is up to me.

anyway, i found a good friend to keep me through this 1 year. and it's no other than my beloved mp3. yaps. finally found it. it's like under my entire pile of books and poly admin stuff. and yaps. hopefully i won't lose it again. and hopefully it'll really drive away my boredom. hahas. =)

oh ya. i was helping dar find a blogskin. and i came across this blog. that has this thingy "how to make me?". so i decided to give it a try. on both my name and my nick. i think it's quite fun. hahas. anyway, i was too bored. so i just did it. hahas.

i won't be in tonight. cause i have a dinner. and sis and maid isn't going. =( hais. guess what? tml school starts! and crystal doesn't have to go school. not fair! hahas.

talked to my sls last night. dominic is like damn funny. and he's like so lame. hahas. i keep calling him sl. and he couldn't stand it, and asked me to call him dom. but dom sounds weird. so i told him, "i like being different from others, so i'll call you nic.". hahas. then i talked to ben. he's more to the cool side. but yaps. it's nice talking to them. =)

sians. i had a terrible dream last night! ok ok. i know it won't come true. but it's seriously scaring me. come on! i had enough of third parties. so give me a break! damn it! *argh*

done blogging.

-kindly accept me for who i am. if not, that's too bad!-

saturday

2007-04-21T20:09:00.001+08:00

since the last time i saw my blog, my blog has been viewed 11 times. and still, no one tags. -.-" ok. so i guess i should delete my tagboard soon. lols.

anyway, this saturday is unlike any other saturdays. this saturday onwards, the next few saturdays will be rest days. and they will no longer be another fun day. sigh. cause school has finally reopen. it feels weird being in poly. they are unlike jcs and secondary schools. i feel as if i have to be independent regardless of whether i have friends or not. and ya. in secondary school, without any friends, it just sucks BIG TIME!

and guess what? i had 10 hours of sleep today. i slept at 1 this morning, and woke up at 11 this morning. first time i woke up at 11!!! omg!! shows how tired i am. lols. and i talked to sam online last night. then he told me dominic added him. so i added dominic and said to him that he was bias. hahas. after teasing me for 2 days, he never add me. lols. and yaps. he's a funny sl. that's for sure. hahas.

had lunch at about 12. had pizza. mum ordered 2 regulars. and i ate 1.5 piece and i felt so full. >< then crystal ask me to go her house play mahjong. so i went lo. then i got ready at 1.30, and waited till like 2.40. then i went down. i saw this group of people walking towards the mrt. then i was thinking, how come there's a gang walking towards the mrt. it's like so weird. and i was busy looking for crystal. but somehow, i couldn't find. then as they got near, i realised that it was eve, dar, dum, jc and crystal. =x oopsy.

went walked to crystal's house. went to the guest room and play mahjong. wahs. her mahjong table has 2 spider. =x hahas. i played like for 2 rounds, i lost like 2 bucks i think. lucky we aren't playing with real money. =x then dum took over me. so i watched a show. then went down with crystal to get drinks. went up, i watched cartoon. then took over dar to play. after so many rounds, i only manage to HU once. -.-" sad can?

left her house at 6.55, then reached home 7.10 cause of the stupid traffic light so slow. lols.

tml is gonna be a boring day. lucky i have lappy! hahas. =x and then monday again. and damn it. i have 2 hours break. what to do?! >< anyone gonna keep me company? =(

done blogging.

-one thing for sure, i'll never forget you. =)-

last day of orientation

2007-04-20T23:02:00.000+08:00

finally the second and of course the last day of orientation. i was expecting it to be more fun and i'll have more friends. but somehow, it didn't turn out the way i think it would.. hais.

anyway, met mins, sh and hui kia. but before that i meet xl. in the end, i was late, and cause all of them to wait. oopsy. lols. manage to board the best. and hey. i think i saw my primary school friend. =x the world is just so small. or should i say tp is just popular among students. lols. i was busy crapping in the bus with mins. and i think they just couldn't stand me. lols. sorry la. i couldn't stand the 10 hours of silence yesterday. =(

reached school. guess who i saw~? i saw my beloved senior ong! lols. i miss her!! erms. haven't seen her for a year!! lols. anyway, we were like 15 minutes earlier. so me, mins, hui kia and xl were crapping outside audi again. lols. then finally going into the audi. and guess who i saw this time? my cutie cai cai ah bu!!! love love! hehes. anyway, found my class. and sit. then the sl distribute all the shirts. biz is like yellow! omg! >< went to change.

went back for some talk. that i feel so bored. i remembered i always talk during talks. and this time.. hais. i'm going to suffer from depression soon! >< hais. but there was one thing that the talk motivates me. DWM. =) i wanna get it! it's diploma with merit! hahas. jia you! woots. then the next thing inspire me is dream, plan, believe and finally, ACTION! i think it makes sense. like it's only when we dream of a goal, then we will plan how to move towards it. and it's only when we believe what we planned, then we can achieve it. but all these are redundant if we don't put them into ACTION! right? hahas. i'm motivated! =) WOOTS~!

after that, we had refreshments. and i sat beside my ex primary school friend, sam. lols. the class is HELL quiet la. wah lao. i can't stand it. lols. so i started talking to sam. then went to meet our careperson. was talking to sam about some khs people. though most of them i don't really know. lols. shows how wide his network is. lols.

went to this room. our careperson is quite funny though he looks strict. he told us about himself. lols. there's this guy who said his cousin's name is also vincent. and the CP said, too bad, i'm not your cousin. lols. crap! we did quite abit of admin stuff. then we moved on to have lunch at the sports complex.

damn. i got squeezed like siao la. i felt as if i was almost becoming a prata. >< anyway, watched the telematch. biz didn't really won though. anyway, during that period of time, while at the sports complex, there's this HTM guy was gentleman enough to sit in a super uncomfortable manner just to let some of my classmates have more space to sit. then when his friend called him, he started complaining that despite how he squeezed, the sl still ask them to squeeze some more. lols. damn funny. hahas. anyway, the sls cheered alot. and tried to ask us to cheer. i did cheer. but the people around me didn't cheer. so i ended up not cheering. and suffer in silence. AGAIN! but i did scream at certain times. hahas.

went to bedok reservoir. watched dragon boat match and cheerleading. we screamed and cheered. somehow, i was surrounded by guys. -.-" talked to one of my classmate. cheered with him. crap and stuff. i think i should just be a guy. i get along better with guys than girls la. wah lao. -.-" i'll soon be classified as a bitch. lols. anyway. we cheered and cheered and cheered. and so many ants came crawling up. -.-" itchy and pain at the same time. hahas.

and woots! at the end of the thing, busi.busi.busi.business won the champion. 3rd time in a row! woots! just imagine, we were like so quiet on the first day, which was yesterday. and today, we are like screaming and shouting. lols. so fun!

had gastric suddenly. guess i skipped lunch. =x then went jamming with sh. and i got sun tanned. hais! guess what. we were sitting down and waiting for the thing to start. then the dragon boat guys approached us. ask if we wanna have dinner. cause they have extra packs. then we said really ar? then i keep laughing and turned red. then another guy said to the guy that approached us, "wah lao! you make that girl blush! see la! she so red!".. dots. i was like -.-" i'm born red. hahas.

ok ok. after this jamming thingy, it has finally proven i'm not the type who is suitable to go clubbing. lols. i don't dance. and all i do is stand there. i wanna drink! =x hahas. next year!!! woots. anyway, i couldn't stand it. so i went out to make a call. somehow, i got to go home. so i took bus 8 to terminal and met crystal and guys. sad to say, this time i made junwee, dar, xl, hui kia and her stead, and crystal wait for me. hahas. =x

went came home. got nagged by my maid. lol.

i'm so tired. next week, thursday no school. ONLY THURSDAY!! argh. others have 2 days. =( not fair right? hais. life is never fair. =x

ok ok. i'll try to make the best out of whatever i have. be it tp or sp, business or science. i'll be the best of what i can. =) cause nothing is impossible with You around. cause i love You. =)

done blogging.

-i know i'm NEVER alone.-

first day of 0 week

2007-04-19T21:44:00.001+08:00

gosh. my tagboard seems to be so dead. why no one tagging my board le. ='(

ok. my alarm rang at 6.30 sharp. then i carried on lying in bed. i didn't feel like getting up at all. i could have like another 4 hours more of sleep!! =( oh well. surrender to reality. TIME TO GO TO SCHOOL!!

met xl, then met sh and went to tampines. then take bus 23 to tp. wait for mins and hui kia. then walked to TCC. gosh! it's hell big la. think it's 3 times mjr's pac. lols. anyway. the beginning of the orientation was quite boring. and wah lao. none of my friends in my class. and not everyone in my class is so hyper. so i'm like so damn bored. i wanna cheer also can't. =(

went to have ice breaking time. ok. know some of their names. and guess what. another Valerie in my class. guess my name is too common. =( i have 3 sls. Jasmine, ben[short for benjamin], and dominic[if i'm not wrong.]. jas is very friendly. =) ben is like super cute and a super hotie! =x dominic is funny and damn lame. hahas. i got to know a girl phyo. =) she's sweet and friendly too. anyway, played friendship dance. then ben asked me what should we dance next. and i said slide! so we slide. hahas. had more ice breaking games. then had lunch. there was short of one lunch box. so the last pack i gave to the guy. then an extra pack came. and i got it. hahas. though i wanted fried rice. but never mind.

then we went to the multi purpose hall to do the mass dance. and my partner is an ACS! omg!!! hais. then we danced chicken dance!!! wheee~~! hahas. had fun there though. =) after that went lecture room to play scavenger hunt. the usual orientation game. lols.

then went back to the multi purpose hall to have inter diploma competition. but before that, we took class photo with 3 sls. hahas. then released!!! wheee~~ went home with xl, sh, mins, hui kia, yu ren, seng yong and kher ming. keep doing km's HHHTM~ cheer. lols. damn funny. we decided to walk to the station. in the end we got lost. hahas. i asked wei neng(new classmates) for direction. then manage to find a bus-stop. lols. on the way, i was so high! hahas. keep doing the cheers and blah blah. lols.

finally got home. lols. i'm so tired. hais. got my time table from crystal. thanks girl! =) hahas. lastest is 4 p.m. lols. wheee~~ hahas.

ok. that's all for today. =)

done blogging.

-why do i have a bad feeling about this. =(-

sians..

2007-04-18T20:41:00.000+08:00

last night, mum came home with a laptop. yaps. there, love at first sight, my beloved! hahas. but many things happened before i opened up the box. like, there was this HUGE FLYING cockroach. sis, me and mum started screaming till dad came back. and he caught the cockroach and threw it into the toilet bowl. and flushed it down lols. only then, i opened the box. hahas. =)

woke up this morning. then used my beloved. install this and that. register for all the warranty. and dots! mouse also got to register for warranty. -.-" ok. i was busy exploring this. things are like so weird. i'm a complete idiot about computers. that's explain why i didn't manage to sell many laptops. lols.

left house at 12 plus to meet sh. went back school to collect my O level cert. hais! sad. see all the Bs and only one pathetic A. -.-" talked to my ex form teacher. hahas. she misses us. hahas. and yeah. receive a comment from her. lols. she said i came out of my comfort zone. became more outspoken when i was in sec 3 and 4. erms.. i can't 100% agree with her. cause i've always been a very noisy girl. only that i'll try my best to be guai in front of teachers. =x that also explain why i can be a prefect. =x but anyway, i've become noisier when i'm in sec 3 and 4. lols. so noisy plus noisier equals to? hahas. yaps. miss my classmates!! =x

came home. and transfer all my songs from comp and sis's laptop to mine. -.-" hate it. lol. did a SO STUPID thing. ok. i won't embarrassed myself. hahas. then at 4.50, i went gym with sis. i walked inclined. and did some running. hahas. then i went to test my pulse rate. i was in between the cardioc zone(red heart) and fat burn zone(yellow heart). and it's like so crap. when i was in the fat burn zone, i was so happy and i laughed. and it increased to cardioc zone. -.-" so the heart icon was like red, yellow, red, yellow, yellow, yellow, red... -.-" then went home.

i'm like so bored. the game i d/l to this laptop can't play!!! SAD!!! ok. i know i won't be complaining bored after tml. cause obviously, i won't. hahas. tml school will FINALLY be starting. and you have no idea how worried i am. =( after MI's orientation, i'm having phobia of orientation now. you know, i can't stand a single second without anyone to talk to. -.-" and tml's orientation better be fun. so i can have fun with my new classmates. hahas. =) MASS DANCE AGAIN!!! gosh. i want a girl partner!!!! =x

hope this chapter of life would be great. =) cause i have You in my life. and i know that You will always be by my side no matter how bad my day is or how sad i am. =) wheee~ hahas. i'll study hard this time. =) i'm not going to let anyone down. hahas. but let me thanks my friends, beforehand, for being there for me. =) hahas.

hope my schedule won't be tight. cause i promised to ask some friends out soon. =) time for catching up!! especially during june. hahas.

oh! GOOD LUCK TO CHOIR. TML IS SYF!!! JIA YOU! lols. i talked to one of my juniors today. and she said that they feel rather stressed. cause the other cultural groups got their silver. i know they can. =) self-confidence can do wonders. hahas.

done blogging.

-love me? hate me? it's up to you. i know i love myself. =)-

weird.

2007-04-17T20:23:00.000+08:00

i've been having BAD dreams for the past 2 nights! and i meant BAD!!! argh! the common thing about both dreams are me, being dead. and each time i wake up, i'll go, "MUMMY!!! i'm DEAD!".. -.-" and she'll go,"??". oh well. they are weird but bad dreams.. how?! am i going to die? i haven't even get a scholarship! i haven't even got my driving lisence! i haven't even got married! nor have i got any kids!!! HOW?! *sobs*

anyway, the first night, my dream was about me, dying -.-", cause i was teaching a kid something, and she accidentally killed someone, and i got punished by DADDY. and i died. -.-"
the second night was that me and some weirdo class went on a field trip near a river. HUGE river. and there was flood. i lost all my pens and pencils and i cried [this is the funny part. =x]. then i went back to find. and got killed. but somehow, i found my group of friends. erms. does that mean they died too? hmms. =x

see! they are weird dreams!!! ='( sad ar!!!

woke up by a msg from sh. our phones are sot, and therefore we had some miscommunication. lols. then i couldn't sleep back.. or should i say, "i didn't dare to go back to bed, cause i was afraid to die again.".. anyway, i used the comp and watched tv. guess what! next time, my mother-in-law will be someone who cares alot about how people see her daughter-in-law.. and she cares alot about money.. hmms. let's see if it's true. lols.

met sh at 11.30. then took 45, and 69 to tp. then, went into tp. gosh. i feel so weird. =x and it's like so hard to believe i'm a poly student. -.-" i feel old!!! anyway, we walked around and sit and chat. then went to take bus 23 to tampines interchange.

walked around. then rush to catch "MEET THE ROBINSONS". i tell you, if only i know what lies in the future, i would have more confident in myself. but guess what, we just got to keep moving forward. lols. =) who cares about the past when all we need to care is about the future. so throw all the hatred, that's in you, away. and welcome the bright future. lols. =)

went to mac, and sit around. suddenly, saw fish and sotong. hahas. i just saw then sometime ago. lols. then we chat and joke. and we played a DUM DUM game. and yap. FISH HAS SCIENTIFICLY PROVEN THAT I AM 100% A DUM DUM. yap.. cause of the dum dum game. lols. damn funny. lols. then crystal, glenn and dar came along. then went home with them. DAR FORGOT TO BRING MY PRESENT!!! hmph. lols.

came home. and guess what, i've decided not to buy my laptop soon. maybe when there is the next IT fair? maybe i could get my fujitsu tablet for a cheaper price. lols. =x totally given up on NEC. cause it's not really suitable for me. hais. =( though it's light, nice, has some good specs. but.. hais..

last night, i was lying in bed. then i realised that i haven't been meeting up a lot of friends. though i promised to meet up.. but i failed to do so.. =( i feel so awful. people like weelin, jas c, clarissa, jun jun, serence, shu jing, veron, david, JOSH!, aloysius, xin yun and many others. but hey! just before i regret losing them. i've decided to cherish them. and yaps! friends like puay, jian yao, bud, feng yao, eve, angel, yun zhen, toh wee, jared and many more, you'll never be forgotten. =) and that goes to lh. WHERE IS MY TREAT? hahas. and same to dan, a friend who encourage me. =) HA! next time in the business industries, i've have many clients!! hahas. =x

oh well. i've decided not to regret any decisions i've made.

done blogging.

-i love YOU, you, you, you and you. and of course, i love myself. =P-

sians.

2007-04-16T17:46:00.000+08:00

each time i count down to orientation, i feel shivers. hahas. i guess it's because i know i'll have problem making new friends. >< man! which part of me makes me look unfriendly? =( pray pray!! at least i have some mjr in my class. lols.

as soon as i woke up, i went to change and went to queue for donuts again. this time, me and sis only need to queue for 1 hour. hahas. and we got donuts! i bought for aunt and granny. so the rest are for mummy and daddy. hahas. =P then sis brought me to the soup spoon. saw this super cute guy. =P sis talked to him. cause she asked him about part time job. and hey! he has humour k? hahas. oh ya. sis paid for my lunch. lols.

went home. went into this fashion to see cardigons. and hahas. i bought a brown one! only 8 bucks! and the material is like so much better than my 19.90 cardigon!! *argh* bought another shirt too. it looks quite like my topshop shirt. hahas. also paid by sis. =P i'm gonna love going out with her. hahas. =P

came home.. slack.. hahas. receive a letter from monsoon. 49% off all hair chemical services. so i think i'm gonna highlight strips of some colour. before my 17th birthday!! wheee~~ hahas. yaps. i love black. but i just wanna try out a whole new look. lols.

oh well. 3 days to go. =( i wanna stay home..... ='(

HA! getting my laptop soon. and i won't need to fight for comp. lols. wheee~~~ fujitsu!! i want fujitsu! or HP. or NEC. or lenovo. hahas. =x ok ok.i won't ask much. i don't mind tablet too. =x

oh ya! do you know that soon women no need guys to reproduce? wow. means we don't need to live on guys? gosh. i can't imagine a girl producing sperms? wonder if guys can produce their own eggs? =x hahas. thinking too much, i guess. =x oh no! means even LES can have babies! wow!!! =x you can find out more at this blog.

www.spluch.blogspot.com

done blogging.

-i've yet to find the guy of my dreams. =)-

gosh!

2007-04-15T21:34:00.001+08:00

gosh! what have life become? i'm like so bored everyday. yet i'm like so lazy to work. OMG! hahas.

so weird. i change blog le, still got people visit my old blog. hahas. oh well.

went out this afternoon. and pass by this house that's on sale. so there was this board of the property agent's phone number and name. then i thought i saw the name as "DAMN NG". hahas. only as my sis drove nearer, i realised that the name is actually "DANN NG". lols. =x ok. time to have my eyes checked. =x

anyway, have fun to those going to school. =)

done blogging.

-i'm going to get a scolding. is a matter of time. DAMN!-

whee~

2007-04-15T00:13:00.000+08:00

last night, i was lying in bed. and i was thinking why on earth does 13 april just seems to be so familiar. but i don't remember anyone's birthday. only to realised that MONTAGE II happened exactly a year ago. it was the last time i was standing on stage. HAs! oh well. the last time getting scolded by our choir teacher in charge! hahas. =x gosh. i miss her! =)

got forced out of bed at 9 a.m. but manage to laze in bed till 10.30. hahas. i'm starting to be a pig. i know. =x sis and mum went out to see a doctor. and they got their flu and sore throat from me. =x and it got worse when it pass from one person to another. hahas. =x at least i'm strong. i recovered without taking medicine! hahas. =)

ok ok. had chicken chop for lunch. then slack. i manage to catch the horoscope show that sh asked me to watch. HEY! it's quite true k? hahas. they had 4 pics, and the pic that attracts you actually tells you your personality. and yap. 100% true. lols. i was attracted to this picture. and it shows that i'm the kind of person who loves to play and go out to have fun. i put friends and family before stead. hahas. yaps. it's true. lols. can't remember the rest. but yaps. it's kinda fun to do such things. hahas.

went to bed cause i was too bored. force to get up AGAIN! then took cab to granny's house. aunt, uncle, granny and aunty was playing mahjong. hahas. then we had dinner. after dinner they wanted to continue, but aunty wanna make some dessert, so i took over. hahas. i lost 3.20 in 2 rounds la. and they play big! omg! hahas. after that, i ask mum to take over. lols. aunty came out with the desserts. so i had my share. =P wow. i'm still being dote k? =P

then went up to cousin's room to play mahjong. lols. could have hu! aiya!! ><

gosh! i'm starting to regret going to tp. damn! why didn't i just go to sp? =( sads. oh well. thanks mins! i guess i should regret. cause i made the decision after thinking for SUPER long time. and had to change twice. -.-" oh well.

hmm. it's time to let go of the past. let bygone be bygone. is that the phrase? =x anyway, my beloved friends. i miss you loads. =) thanks for being there for me. woohooo~ though we're in different school, you're never forgotten, but being missed instead! hahas. =)

done blogging.

-you'll always be in my heart.-

FEEL rich

2007-04-13T22:26:00.000+08:00

wow. first time(actually not really first time), i feel so rich. =x hahas.

woke up like 9 a.m. and i didn't even know what to do. can't be bothered to go online. so i switched on the tv. and there's no nice show! *argh* but i had no choice, but to watch. -.-"

left house about 1. the sky was like so cloudy. then went eunos mrt station to wait for sh. while waiting, i was reading my book. i love reading it. it's like SO NICE~! hahas. 2 trains gone, and finally she reached. i saw teresa. lols.

anyway, we went to orchard. and it was raining cats and dogs la. to avoid the rain, we went underground, from taka to lucky plaza. then went to giordano. gave sh a few to wear, but none suit her taste. lols. finally found someone more fussy in choosing clothes than me. lols. after that, went to I.P zone. saw a few clothes. then realise that it's s&k. and actually, they are side by side. -.-" so i found a top. and i bought it. ha! feel so rich suddenly. =x

went to far east. look, see, look, see. saw many nice tops! ahh!!! i'm going to buy them soon. but one at a time. =x then went to bugis. bought 2 pearl necklace for my maid. then went to bugis to walk around. and finally, went back home. saw mrs wong! hahas. next week school anni. should i go back? =x

wow. i got a shock just now. >< shan't say.. i'm starting to freak out. hais. =(

last night, i received a msg from an ex classmate. and really, i felt that i've been appreciate all these while and i didn't even know. i felt guilty. hais. it was then i realise that it's been a long time since i last msg my darling. so i send a good night msg. wheee~~~ =) puay!!! i miss you la.

His promise to me is "I will not leave you nor foresake you." =) who can ever resist such a promise? hahas. definitely not me. =P

mum is sick. it's time to be a good girl and stay home. lols. =) and enough zi lian-ing le. been zi lian-ing each time i go out. hahas. time to stay home!!! =x

done blogging.

-i won't regret. =)-

test my patience. >=(

2007-04-12T22:55:00.000+08:00

got up at 10 a.m. die la! next week orientation, how to wake up at 7+?! lols. anyway, slack until about 12 plus. had lunch home cause crystal wanna save money. WOW! hahas. then went to meet her. and waited for dum. lols.

took mrt to chinatown. =x i feel like some idiot la. first time taking mrt to chinatown. cause i thought there was no mrt station there! wow. lols. anyway, that blur girl didn't know which building, all she knows it's opposite OG. and we went up the wrong exit. so went back down, and went to people park centre, which is the one opposite OG. and she bought her stuff. then went to buy food! wheee~ had my tuk tuk kueh and my tau sah~! hahas. YUMMY~ dum call me pig! =x

after that went to city hall. trying to be a good girl, i went to queue for the donut factory. and stupidly, i thought why the queue so short? but actually, the queue was FREAKING LONG~~~~ be glad i didn't use "bloody". ARGH!

one hour passed, i was fine with it. 2 hours passed, i started getting restless. i got dum to queue for me, while i sit down with crystal. then sat for 40 minutes and went to pei dum. we did many craps. can see dum was SO BORING until he played LAME games with us. lols. then we play with words. like, "KAERF", "DIPUTS", and "TIHS". lols. lame person. then finally, 4 hours gone~~!! hahas. we made our orders. and happily and HUNGRILY left. went to take mrt home. hahas. my poor donuts. people push here, push there.

finally got home, and my sis and maid ate a donut each. WAH LAO!!! was thinking of queue soon. then give some to my aunt and cousin. =) hey~ i'm quite a good girl k? hahas. just a little greedy and lazy only. hahas. but this entire queueing up thingy is really testing my patience! hmph! anyway, while queueing, i was eyeing at this sling bag! MUST BUY!!! =P i'll save up. hahas.

school is finally starting soon. and hopefully my class will be full of fun. =) may my horoscope comes true. =P and of course, it's finally time to be serious, and to be responsible and sensible. =) MAIN GOAL? UNI! =) failure or not, is in the state of mind. therefore, i'm not a failure!

done blogging.

-don't look down on me. cause i know i can, if i want to. =)-

helpless.

2007-04-11T23:49:00.001+08:00

each time i feel the pain, i'll turn to You. i'll always ask You why did You let me to through the same old pain over and over again. and i'll always receive the same answer, "everything happens for a reason."

but right now, i feel horrible. and the pain seems far too much to tolerate it.

Daddy. i'm begging You. take me away. end this pain once and for all.

gosh.

2007-04-11T22:28:00.000+08:00

last night, i couldn't really sleep. i was practically tossing and turning. then i looked up at the ceiling and remembered the game we used to play when we were young. and somehow, i think i'm always the odd one out. like, i'm the only one who wear spects, the only one who go to a lousy sec school(though to me mjr rocks~), and i'm like the only one who hate studying and reading book. but i hope this odd-one-out game will end right here. cause i don't want to be the only one who can't make it to uni. =)

woke up at 9 today, went online. then prepared to leave my house. i did talk to my maid about bible. and i think i understand more. but i think it's time to talk to my cousin instead. =) went to meet sh. then went to plaza sing to deposit money. and DAMN! i'm hell broke!!! DADDY!!! i need a student to tutor!!!

went to sp to meet yz. then she went to lecture. so me and sh started talking. and we were so bored that we talk about primary school days. pretty lame i realised. hahas. when we were young we were really childish. hahas. and yaps. i really miss my primary friends. and the fun we had. lols.

then waited for yz to come out. and went to meet tw bro. then went to kfc to eat. and we were lame-ing there. lols. it's like so freaking hot there can? >< but anyway, it started raining. so it's cooler. lol. i saw vincent! wow. hahas. anyway, left sp. and headed to the east.

yz alighted at city hall, cause she met xiang lin and others. you know how much i miss them?! =( lols. sent sh to tanah merah. then head off to TM with bro. went to life bookshop, then to precious thoughts and ended up in toys r us. and ya! i look like a girl with no childhood can?! ok la. my childhood was lame. but it was kinda fun. lols. =) then went mac. cause my KIND bro insist on treating me ice cream. so went mac. then started talking about cca and stuff. yaps. i miss OBBD~! the fun, the lame, the jokes, and the stupid games that till now, i can't play. -.-" but the bonding was there! =) went home.

sometimes it's pretty hard to let things go. but Daddy is just so great. He minimised the pain that i'm experiencing deep inside. =) how can i say i've 100% let it go? nope, i didn't. i can't help hating myself for being so foolish. for believing every single word he said. all the promises were all broken. and right now, i find it so hard to feel happy for him. oh well....

i changed the song. "Sometimes when we touch", is a song i learnt when i was only kindergarden. my maid taught me. and just few days ago, i recalled the tune and started singing it. =) my memory isn't bad afterall. =P

done blogging.

-f*ck off BASTARD!-

happy. =)

2007-04-10T21:09:00.003+08:00

Daddy is great. seriously.

i had a pretty weird dream last night. but at least, He gave me the green light to let it go. last night, i dreamt i was at vivo. stupid place to be at! Vivo has nothing to shop la! hahas. ok ok. back to topic. i was at vivo, and i was about to board the train. when i saw he and his family. he was smiling. HA! shows how happy he is in reality. great! =)right now, i wish we could at least be friends. it's only a wish. =)

i stayed home whole day. stupid flu and throat is killing me. but i didn't really care. =x had mac, ate chocolates and drink cold drinks. hahas. of course. i watched tv ALMOST the entire day. hahas. huge improvement i tell you! hahas. i slept for an hour. i'm super tired can?! lols.

going out tml. like finally?! hahas.

done blogging.

-You're my cure. as you take all the pain away.-

happy. =)

2007-04-10T21:09:00.001+08:00

a brand new me. =)

2007-04-09T23:06:00.001+08:00

many things happened over the past 5 days. and i think it's probably time to explain for my disappearance. =)

thursday
i woke up at 7, upon receiving the bad news of the death of my amazing Uncle Roland. Lord took him away, from my aunt, making sure that he returns to when he belongs. of course, i went back to sleep, cause i slept at 1 the night before.

then i slack for quite a long while, then i prepared and left house. i reached TM about 4 plus. and went around shopping. i felt rich! hahas. so i spent 20 bucks on this book, at Lifebook shop, Hope for Each Day. i wanted to buy Footprints for Teens, but it cost like 30 bucks. so i gave it a miss. i'm still longing for someone to buy me the precious thoughts Bible. hahas. oh well. then i met buddy. and went to meet puay, jian yao and norwin at about 5.45. met fish, sotong, san and jolin. they left about 6.30. and i left about 6.45.

went home, had dinner and left house about 9. my cousin send us there to attend the wake. we paid him our respect. like i said, it was the first time i saw mum crying. i tried to console her, but tears just came rolling down my cheeks too. i felt a pair of arms around me. but i didn't know where that feeling came from. oh well. me and sis was given an important job to do. that was the collect the donations and record them. this went on till about 12 plus. and finally went home nearly 1. -.-"

friday
Good friday. =) i was home the entire day. and only left house about 5. went to the wake again. and did my job. there was service at 8. many people came flooding in. i listened to the service. and heard many things about what people have to say about my uncle. then the Father did his job. he read the service booklet. this went on till about 9.30. then came many people who starts giving donations. sis lend me a helping hand. and i manage to get things right. *phew* hahas. reached home about 1 again. ><

saturday
dad had to work, so there isn't any transport other than taxi. lols. right. took cab to the wake. did the same job. and i kept watching the slideshow on pictures of my uncle. it's pretty hard to believe why he is lying there. i miss his laughter. i miss him calling me "xiao mei mei". i miss him talking about lifestyle. yet. when he was alive, i've never cherish those moments at all. =(

sunday
reached the wake at about 5.30. did the same old thing. during the service, i listened to what my aunt had to say. seriously, i guess without the love and care and help that Lord gave her, she won't be strong. and without those, my uncle would have been long gone from this earth. Aunt loves uncle a lot, so much that she would do anything for him. =) went home early this day.

monday, today
i skipped my orientation to attend the last day of the funeral. hahas. anyway, went to see doctor in the morning cause i was having sore throat. mum called up the clinic to see if i can see the doctor first. of course, the nurse gave in to my mum. and announced to the entire clinic that i had to attend a funeral. and she scolded me cause my mum scolded her. -.-" i was so angry, i didn't even heard what the doctor said to me. bloody pissed off!
reached home, changed and left. went there to help around. and left for Mandai at 2.45. when we reached the cremation area, uncle roland's sister said her speech. of course, it was only then when i learnt many things.

Uncle Roland cherished bonding and the relationship between his family. and he thought me to cherish whoever came into my life. he spreads around the love the Lord Jesus Christ gave to us and the greatness of Him. he once said, "we have given other gods a chance, it's time we should give Jesus Christ a chance. it's time we should find out more about Him and know who He is.".

upon holding the flower and putting it on the coffin, tears gathered in my eyes. uncle roland's love for his love ones was so strong. and so was Jesus's love for those who have faith in him. i shaked my cousin-in-law's hand, my cousin kelly, my aunt, and my cousin barry's hand. tears just came rolling down. there was no way to stop it. we went to the viewing room. everyone was crying. and my aunt was so devastated.

i started thinking. what are the tears i shed after each break up compared to the tears she shed for her husband. the guy who spent half a life time with her. the guy who protect her, the guy who loved her, and the guy who cherished her.

after all these, we went back to aunt's place and had a thank you dinner.

uncle roland taught me a beautiful lesson. thank you. ^{i'll miss you always. but i know you'll always be around me.}=)

done blogging.

-i wanna cherish everything.-

=)

2007-04-08T00:19:00.001+08:00

for the past 3 nights, my mind was at a peaceful state. probably it was because of the service.

many things went through my mind. some memories i had with him. and a huge question mark i had in mind. where did he went to? but someone gave me an answer. =)

i've decided to take back some of my words. today, i've finally realised that through this, i'm never alone. in fact, i've found Someone who truly loved me for who i am. =) Someone who was always there for me. Someone who never break His promises. and Someone who was ever ready to protect me. =)

there's always a reason for everything that happen in life. and this time, i've found my reason soon enough. =)

Daddy, this lost sheep of yours is finally returning home. to where she belongs. =)

done blogging.

-emo in a right way. =)-